I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the words
I Am Alone.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when
I am alone, nobody sees me,
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when
I am alone, nobody cares for me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when
I am alone, nobody can feel me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when
I am alone, nobody understands me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when
I am alone, nobody knows what I am going through.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire for
people to just leave me alone.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to be left
alone, for no one to come near me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to be
by myself, to be alone.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I want to
be left alone, or to be alone.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a deep-seated,
all-encompassing ‘volcanic’-eruptive fear to build within me in relation to the word ‘alone’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I really
in fact want to be alone.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that
behind the want, need and desire to be left alone, to not want to be around people,
to not like people, to not like the world, the belief that everything is fucked up, is actually
a cry for help, a cry for someone to care, for someone to listen, for someone to understand
and for someone to see.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a physical, addictive
desire to have someone come and embrace the entirety of who I am inside myself, for
someone to almost fit inside all that I am and make sense for me of who I am, what I am
experiencing, why I am experiencing it.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone
with/within myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself and others within
the apparent ‘want’ to be alone, as a manipulation tactic as a way to seek attention to not
be alone, to get energy and experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as this cry for
attention, for someone to see me, for someone to understand me, for someone to
LOVE me, for someone to be with me for the REST of my life , instead of seeing,
realizing and understanding that it is all in an attempt to fill the void, to not have to face
the fact that I have not developed that relationship with myself completely yet.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the responsibility onto
another being to see me, to understand me, to love me, to embrace all of me, to explain
me to me, instead of being that and giving that to myself.
I forgive myself that I have used and abused ‘wanting to be left alone’/not wanting
support/help/not wanting to be comforted and consoled as a manipulation tactic/reverse
psychology to attract people to me, to make people want to do and be that for me, instead
of being self-honest about what I actually want and need, which is not to be alone, and also
to have a better relationship with myself.
