Expectations and Blame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that there is a perfect life awaiting me, so long as everyone meets my expectations, instead of working and communicating with those in my reality to create a reality that is best for all involved. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for the imperfections and disappointments in my reality, for having not met my expectations and so not manifest the reality I imagine could possibly exist for me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship between expectations and blame. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations with people in my life, especially those closest to me, where I will 'protect' my emotional body by placing 'ground rules' as expectations, and expect my rules to be followed, or else my emotional body will become angry or hurt or disappointed, and blame someone outside myself for causing me pain. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imprison and trap people into conforming to how I would like them to behave through placing expectations upon them, as well as a secret ultimatum where if they do not adhere to my expectations, I will blame them, either secretly inside myself or outwardly, for upsetting me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations in my mind, and to treat them as truth, fact and 'the way things should be' and 'how people should behave', without making my expectations known and defining them with anyone involved, where we could then turn expectations into a living agreement that serves both or all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold secret expectations and place them upon others, where, if my expectations are not met I blame the other as if they 'should have known' that I would become upset at their actions that did not adhere to my expectations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify the expectations I create, using morality and my past, so that I think and believe my expectations are 'right' and 'just'. 

I forgive myself thar I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become self-riggteous in my expectations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse the relationship between unmet expectations and blame, with accountability. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse expectations and blame with agreement and accountability. 

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the existence of 'expectations, and 'blame' between two people is absolute manipulation, disempowerment and control from either one side to another, or both sides upon each other, to protect and preserve self-interest and ego. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condemn another to my expectations, and if my expectations are not met, to blame them for my emotional state afterwards. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations for other people, where I decide, alone in my mind, how another or others should act, so that my emotional body is satisfied and I feel in control. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to control others through the mechanism of 'expectations and blame', where I am essentially telling another what to do, who and how to be within placing expectations upon them, and then punishing then with blame if they are to step out of the lines I had drawn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and think that it is normal for one to be trapped and controlled by expectations and then blame, while the others feels 'happy'and 'satisfied at the state of the relationship, as their emotional body is apparently 'safe', even though I would not want to experience expectations and blame placed upon me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condemn myself to a form of slavery and servitude, as I seek to fulfill another's expectations and in that, take responsibility for their emotional state, and then accept the blame as if I had failed when I somehow fall short of the expectations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on the expectations and blame of others. 

I forgive myself that I jave accepted and allowed myself to find safety and security in constantly trying to meet the expectations of others, because at least then there are rules and guidelines for how I should live, without first investigating if the expectations are practical or beneficial for both, which would essentially become an AGREEMENT rather than expectations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that 'if only all my expectations were met - then i would be happy', without considering the living experience of others when condemned to my expectations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condemn myself to the expectations of another in order to try and attempt to 'make them happy', even if it makes me miserable.  

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that there exists 'another way' - a working together, a doing what's Best for All, a living agreement between people, and not only keeping each other 'in line'with expectations and blame. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the victim through blaming another when my expectations are not met, as a form of disempowerment due to feeling as though I do not have control over another, instead of empowering myself to communicate and direct and interaction or any form of relationship between myself and another in a way that is best for both.  

Please read this blog for further context.