Because I accept and allow the fact that I have more than
others, and I know that this is unfair. I realize that what I have and my
position in the world is a result of living in a system of inequality, where I
out of sheer luck, ended up being born into the group called the ‘haves’, where
I spent my life not challenging this because I was born into it and accepted it
as simply ‘the way things are’.
Because of and due to my acceptance and allowance of a
system of inequality, I have accepted and allowed that abject poverty,
starvation, survival, lack and innumerable forms of suffering are ok to exist.
Within this I have accepted and allowed myself to fear these
atrocities, and so fear that lack, starvation, poverty and innumerable forms of
suffering may occur to me - a fear which keeps me in my place and in line and
paralyzed from speaking up or disrupting the system and my place within it.
Because I accept and allow self-interest, where I am fully
human and deserving, and where ‘criminals’ exist only as a picture in my mind
and so I do not have to consider them as fully human, equals in Life, where
they exist as figments of my imagination.
Because I have accepted and allowed myself to become
addicted to consumerism, possessed by possessions because I have accepted and
allowed ‘what I have’ to determine ‘how I feel’ in terms of things like
survival, security, self-image, self-worth etc… and within this have accepted
and allowed a fear of loss, fear of losing myself, my things, my money, and so
want to protect it, hoard it, keep others out and away, even when I know there
is no system of support for them to go to.
Because I have separated myself from others with the thought
that ‘it is happening to them’ and not me, and feeling relieved.
Because I’ve abdicated responsibility to governments, police
and other systems to ‘take care of crime’, where if it is not happening
directly to me, I don’t have to look at it.
Because I accept and allow myself to judge myself, and then
punish myself in my mind, thus accepting and allowing a system of judgment/punishment
within, and so as a result, equally accepting and allowing it without.
Because I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within
and as the ‘me versus them’ game, where ‘I am good’ because I do not ‘commit
crime’ (as defined by the system), and ‘they are bad’ because they ‘commit
crime’ (as defined by the system), instead of seeing and realizing that I AM
them, seeing ‘them’ as reflections of those parts of me I have suppressed, not
faced, and showing me the crimes of our combined acceptances and allowances in
this world.
Because I have accepted and allowed jealousy, greed, envy
and spite within and as me, where I want what others have, and where I’ve
accepted and allowed disempowerment within myself and in relation to the world
systems of money, jobs and consumerism, thinking and believing I am powerless
to better myself and my life, and so I will instead take from others, acting
within spite of others because they have what I want and so I spite them, make
them less, and take what they have despite the fact that would not want this to happen to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
sit and hope that ‘crime does not happen to me’, sitting in fear of crime,
holding my breath in a way, while I accept and allow crime to exist without
questioning why or what can be done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
subscribe to a system of absolute inequality unquestioningly, where my mind
exists in a small box of what is acceptable and allowable, where I never dared
to peek outside that box and ask questions, or opened my mindset enough to
consider that there can be another way, that solutions and change are possible.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a system
of inequality, abject poverty, starvation, lack, survival and innumerable forms
of suffering to exist within the thought that “it is ok so long as it is not
happening to me” and that “I am ok to just sit here and fear it” instead of
taking a stand within myself that this is not an acceptable way to live life on
this earth and that I will not allow the acceptance of this within me and as
me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
sit and fear the atrocities of the world, fearing lack, starvation, poverty and
innumerable forms of suffering, fearing that they may occur to me, a fear which
keeps me in place and in line, which paralyzes me from speaking up or
disrupting the order of things for fear of losing my privileged place within it,
where I don’t dare go there, not even in my mind, not even opening up the
possibility of another way in my mind, showing I have been mind-controlled.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in self-interest, where I, in my mind, am fully human and so
deserving, whereas those I perceive to be ‘criminals’ or ‘victims of crime’
exist only as a picture, a figment of my imagination and so I do not have to
consider them as fully human, equals in Life, and can drop them from my mind as
easily as I can drop or change a picture in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be and become addicted to consumerism, possessed by my possessions, where I have
accepted and allowed ‘what I have’ to determine ‘who I am’ and ‘how I feel’ in
terms of and in relation to things like survival, security, self-image and
self-worth etc… where within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear loss, fear losing myself, to fear losing my things, to
fear losing my money, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to want to protect myself, my things and my stuff, to keep others ‘out’
and ‘away’, even though I know very well there is no system of support in place
for them, for those less fortunate to turn to as the world turns away and we
collectively turned our backs on them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
separate myself from others, and react in ‘relief’ when I see that bad things
are happening to them, and not me, even though if I were in their
position, I would want someone to consider me, to support me, to help me out
till I get on my feet, and within this, I forgive myself that I have not done
unto others as I would like have done unto me, but have instead closed myself
off, closed my mind as consideration, closed all the doors and locked myself into
my castle of fear – much like how it play out on earth is how I exist in my
mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
abdicate responsibility to the government, police, and other systems, for them
to take care of the ‘crime problem’, the ‘crime problem’ that we have all
collectively accepted and allowed, but when we do not have to deal with it
directly, we do not have to look at it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
give my power away to governments, where they can use my power to fuel their
own corruption, or be burdened by my power, where they truly want to do
something about the situation but simply cannot take it on alone without the
participation of the masses, and so they get the life sucked out of them, as I
sit in fear in my apparent comfort and security of ‘having enough to survive’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
abdicate responsibility to the police to please ‘take care of crime’, where
they risk their lives and kill others due to this entire system that we have
collectively allowed, where ‘criminals versus police’ creates a life of fear,
misery, stress, anxiety, death and insecurity for the individuals directly
involved and their families, where they confront reality more directly for all
of us, and so we herald the police as heroes because they are standing in a
position we do not want to stand in, see, look at or know about, so we honour
them and give them medals, punish and judge the others for a sense of justice
being done, when in fact we are actually honouring the system, justifying the
system, keeping the system in place, and the front-line place keepers for not
rocking the boat, because then we all know we would have to look, have to
confront it, within ourselves and without.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a system
of ‘crime and punishment’ to exist within and as me, where I constantly judge
myself in my mind, and constantly punish myself and beat myself up in my mind, so that when I see judgment and punishment
happening outside of me and in the world, I think ‘yes, I am not the only one,
others must also suffer, be judged and punished like me’, and so feel a bit
better when I see judgments being made and apparent ‘justice’ taking place as punishment,
instead of stopping judging, coming to an understanding, and changing the
circumstances that cause the problems in the first place.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate within and as the ’me’ versus ‘them’ game, where I judge myself as ‘good’ because I
apparently do not commit ‘crime’ (as defined by the system), and ‘they are bad’
because they commit ‘crime’ (as define by the system), instead of seeing and
realizing that I AM ‘them’, and seeing and realizing ‘them’ as reflections of
me and those parts of myself within me that I have suppressed, not faced, where
‘they’ (us/we) are simply showing ‘us’ (ourselves collectively) the result and
consequences of our collective acceptances and allowances in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed greed,
jealousy, envy and spite to exist within and as me, wanting what others have,
and instead of empowering myself to make the best life for myself and everyone
else – where everyone can have what they want and need, instead go into
disempowerment within myself and in relation to the world systems of money,
jobs, consumerism etc… thinking and believing I am powerless, and so I would consider
taking from others, acting within spite towards others because they have what I
want and I can’t otherwise get it, in this, diminishing them in my mind conveniently
so that taking from them does not seem so bad, even though I know beyond a
shadow of a doubt that I would not want this to be done unto me, instead of
living the statement and principle of doing unto others as you would have them
do unto you, where I would rather have us all working on a system of support,
to support each one in their lives and livelihoods.
I commit myself to break down my walls of fear, to let Life in and let myself out into the world and reality, where I commit myself to dedicate myself to a process of change, to assist and support anyone who decides to do the same, and receive assistance and support when I need it, to change in thought, word and deed to an actual creator that contributes to the creation of a world that's Best for All.
