Qanon and Global Change

I was following the Q anon movement for about a year, up until about 2 years ago – this was NOT a very acceptable or popular thing to be interested in within my liberal/democratic social circles. I got to Q through being a Bernie Sanders supporter. I followed the 2016 primaries closely, and for anyone looking even just beneath the narrative, you will see that a LOT was exposed about the blatant corruption in US politics and the media during that time.  It is interesting because Q anon is highly associated with Republicans, but if you take a little time to investigate, you will see that it is not about Democrats and Republicans, but rather about the entire establishment containing a corrupt mafia-like structure (with international ties) present on both sides, with a group of otherwise well-intentioned people trying to represent the masses in government.

I got into Q anon by initially looking into wikileaks, and eventually got invited to a Q anon group on facebook by a Ramster. I saw the same information repeating itself, information I had been hearing about for years. I dug in and I learned about Q+, kek, pepe, Qproofs, decoding tweets with gematria, BOOM, 4chan, 8chan, alice in wonderland, Q drops, white hats, 5:25, trust the plan, the political moves, people and positions being filled, etc… so for anons, that will give you an idea of how far or how not far I got into it.

Q anon’s goals include bringing the power of the government back to the people, stopping corruption and abuse in politics, religion and the entertainment industry, creating a fair capitalism that is not tainted by monopolies, harmonization and globalization, exposing and stopping funding global elites that have all the power and control in banking, the food industry, media, politics, international relations through driving the war machine and arms industry, medicine and pharmaceuticals, and basically owning everything we depend on to survive in this physical reality.

The Q anon movement was quite a phenomenon, and although it did have its highly publicized radical fringes, from what I saw, it had its fair share of very level-headed people. These people were mostly concerned with accountability, transparency and essentially making the world a better place in ways they understood this could actually happen in our current system of corruption and control. There was also a focus on ending human-trafficking and pedophilia, and the misuse of public funds globally.

So, I followed this movement and I thought YES, the people at the top may finally be exposed and lose their power, and new, better, ‘good’ people are going to take their place and make the world a better place for all of us. I really thought that one group was going to penetrate the political sphere, and shake the corrupt foundations that had been so firmly set in place since the very beginning. And to this day, based on what I saw and read, I still think this movement could have been very real, and very well-intentioned.

Meantime, I have for over 10 years promoted another, different solution – one based more in common sense. A grass-roots movement that takes place from the ground up. This solution posits that every human being should be valued, and that the money system should be a reflection of this value, where money is created based on human life. Financial support for basic needs (food, education, health care, housing, transportation and communication) from birth till death – no fear of not having money, no survival of the fittest, but rather money equally for everyone, in other words, Equal Money, or an Equal Money System. (Yes, you can still work and make a lot more money and be rich, and yes, at this point we do know there is more than enough money to go around the globe several times).

There were a few realizations I had regarding the Q movement that I simply couldn’t deny, and which the Equal Money System solution actually addresses directly. This touches on the human trafficking and pedophilia points, within which an important reality was ignored within the Q anon movement. This is the fact that, when you only look at the elite and the abuses they commit, you are actually wearing blinders to a huge part of reality. I had spoken to a man that had spent years in South African townships, and he recounted to me the child rape and abuse at all levels that was able to take place unnoticed in these conditions of poverty. He saw people (not the elite) offering their children for rape to landlords when they were not able to pay the rent, and inter-familial molestation taking place regularly. People in these conditions all over the world end up prostituting their children for food money, and selling some of their children into sex slavery in order make money to save the rest of the family. These atrocities are not isolated to South African townships though, they take place all over the world, including countries such as the USA. And then you can consider child-sex tourism in almost every impoverished country, where middle-class people (not the elite), travel to experience sex with a child against the child’s will. So, pedophilia is a global accepted occurrence, and only a fraction of child rape takes place by the elite. When we focus on the elite, who are essentially untouchable, we are ignoring the bigger part of the problem, which is pedophilia committed by ‘normal’ people all over the world every day.

The elite are said to use pedophilia in satanic rituals and in order to use as blackmail to control the entertainment industry, and the other entertainment industry called politics. This is some serious mental depravity. However, the other, every day pedophilia has the common thread of poverty – needing money to survive, and being stuck in sex slavery due to lack of money, and pedophilia as a result of lack of education. I mention lack of education because of the use of child-rape within the belief that it will cure one of AIDS and other conditions. So, every-day pedophilia and MANY other forms of abuse can be directly addressed by valuing human life, and backing that value with money (enough for food, water, housing, education, transportation and communication). In all of these conditions, if either the child or the family had money, the rape would not have occurred, or the child could have walked away (many do, and end up on the streets).

With the elites, we are talking about a whole other level of madness – one that cannot be directed with money, because they already have that. These people need to be committed into mental institutions and perhaps even studied to learn how the human mind can sink to such depths of perversion and degradation, in order that we may prevent such mind-control or brainwashing from ever occurring again.

Now look at the numbers: billions of people live in poverty or extreme poverty, half the global population – how many millions of children are abused in these conditions, stuck there with no way out because they do not have money. Now think about how many elite exist in the world? Every well-versed conspiracy theorist can tell you that there is not that many, especially the higher up you go. So, the number of children being raped by these ‘untouchable’ people is but a mere fraction of the problem, and is the part of the problem that is farthest from our reach to prove and so prevent.

I had to ask myself, why is my focus being diverted to a very small fraction of a global problem, and the fraction that I am least empowered to do something about? It started to feel like I was living in a conspiracy theory within and conspiracy theory! Using conspiracies to distract from real solutions. I mean, yes, I can expose the elite and their use of pedophilia, but when I started looking, I saw that this has been exposed for years with absolutely no effect, and that if I were to jump on this bandwagon, I would be sucked down so many rabbit holes, and would most likely become labelled as a conspiracy theorist and lose my voice and credibility. Whereas if I were to use my time, energy, resources and voice to expose the bigger global phenomenon, and to empower people financially (like with voting for Yang for example, or starting grassroots movement which I am currently busy doing with a growing group of people, check out Earth Haven), then I would be doing what the elite really fear – empowering the masses.  

Why do you think conspiracy theories are allowed to run rampant on the elite-controlled internet? It is but one of the devices of the elite to consume people, discredit them whether the conspiracy is true or not, and get them sucked down endless rabbit holes where human time, ingenuity, resources and power is lost. I have spoken to many people, and I am one myself, that had spent a lot of time following lines of information and conspiracy theories – many of which I do believe are true. But the one thing we all had in common was that we spent a LOT of time on it, and had no effect whatsoever. Not only that, but in our actual day-to-day lives, we were becoming withdrawn, creating friction with no solution, and not building up our own lives or empowering ourselves to actually do something in our very own communities.

We were spending hundreds of hours online, and it is kind of fun and exciting, entertaining ourselves, joining a special global group of people ‘in the know’ – with absolutely no physical evidence of having done anything of value or worth. In fact, in one moment, parts of the internet can be shut down, or the entire internet can be controlled, and we will lose all of our work and be forced to face the realities in our own backyards.

Ask yourself, what is the last thing the elite want from the masses? The answer is empowerment. What is the quickest way to empower someone? Give them money. But the elite want slaves and they are very cunning about it. They want people stuck in survival, working to the bone, fearing losing a paycheck. They are so cunning they will even hide in plain sight, expose their lesser and more expendable ranks to keep the slaves distracted, consumed, busy, focused on things they cannot do anything about. Meanwhile, empowering people in the most direct and important way, which is financially, has been demonized, labelled, laughed at, called evil like socialism or communism - seems like another elite tactic, doesn't it? When you talk to most people about giving others money, they will suddenly separate and divide themselves from their fellow man. But is that not yet ANOTHER tactic of the elite? To divide and conquer? Now we turn against each other and call each other lazy, undeserving, leeches, where did these ideas come from? Who started them? Why aren't we looking at the obvious: looking at how much stress EVERYONE is under due to money, having to make money, where it is becoming harder and harder to secure a life in this world. 

But we do not want to give everyone access to money, because we are spiteful. We are angry. I am angry. We are tired. I am tired. We never got anything for free, we had to ‘suffer’, so everyone should suffer. We would rather live in a suffering world than secure everyone with a guaranteed income, without looking at how much suffering would end, in case a handful of people abuse it and we get our feelings hurt (because it would not actually harm us physically). I think, in reality, we all fear something a little deeper... it is in fact SO easy to give everyone money, that we would feel incredibly ashamed once we had done it - because we would realize how quickly it would end so much suffering, especially the suffering of the innocent, yet we were unwilling to even consider it because of our own self-interest. How shameful.

This is where I come to the notion of forgiveness. The notion of offering a blank slate. To each other and to ALL, with no more retribution, no more paying for sins, no more punishment – because our sins are so much, that if we were to each one pay for our sins and the sins of our fathers, we would be paying for sins forevermore, and the world would not change. Q anons can be vicious, hungry for revenge, hungry for a witch hunt, hungry for people to be hung, tortured, abused as they have abused. Then maybe they will learn a lesson, right? Q anons want suffering to take place, to end suffering.

But what about those elite that have had enough? What about the ones that have had a change and want to change? The ones forced into it against their will? What happens to the elite that want to speak out, who are actually in a position where they could finally expose and prove for real what is going on in the upper circles? What they face is death from both directions. If they are not killed by the elite themselves, then they will be killed by the masses of people hungry for their blood. What if Hillary Clinton actually did eat the face of a child and participate in torture and ritualistic abuse, and has now seen that she can’t get away with it for much longer, that it is not working… her health is failing and her corruption exposed, and now she just wants to speak about it and end it all. Will she speak out if she knows she will be received by a one-way trip to Guantanamo? Probably not. If we have to force it out of each one, with the positions they are in and the power they have, it will take a very, very long time. During this time, more children will suffer.

If we were to instead forgive the elite, and employ them to use their resources to turn the entire system around – with the knowledge and understanding they have of the system and the human mind, and how to effect change effectively on a large scale, then we could actually end the problem faster. So, the question here is: do we want to end the problem faster and change more effectively, or do we more want punishment and revenge (even if that desire for punishment and revenge will prolong the suffering of the innocent)? If even the most high-up, notorious elite whistleblowers were met with forgiveness, more would be willing to do the same. They can either help, or disappear, and never again repeat the same behaviour they have been living for so long.

About 2000 years ago, a group of people were in the very same position that we stand in today – they were asked to forgive those who killed him. And they had to, because it is what Jesus himself preached. They had to overcome their anger, their resent, their suffering, their spite, and forgive the very ones that killed their messiah. They had to, because if they did not, those that killed him could not have been converted, could not have changed. This is the position we stand in today, on a much larger and more consequential scale, but the same position nonetheless.

Within all of this, all of the information and theories that may or may not be true – I know that I stand for a change in the economic system where life is valued over profit. I realize that we cannot hope and wait for the elite to change or to bring a change, but thankfully there has been a proposal made called an Equal Money System. A bunch of crazy kids went to study economics, politics, law and psychology and drew up a new economic model that addresses every major problem in the world. They wrote books, hosted hangouts, made websites and took on much direct attacks, trolls and haters. Why? Because they wanted to empower everyone with money. Strange, isn’t it?

You can check out the books here: https://eqafe.com/series/13-equal-money-books

 

 

 

Gravity: A Beautiful Coward's Song: micro-blog from Desteni Universe

Looking at John Mayer's song 'Gravity', a song that strikes deep, yearning, mourning and soulful chords in me, bringing it back to self to see what exactly this song accesses on deeper levels.

I like the use of the word 'gravity' in the song because of its dual meaning. On the one hand, it is the "force of attraction by which terrestrial bodies tend to fall toward the center of the earth", while on the other hand it also refers to the "serious or critical nature" of an issue, like the gravity of the situation we are collectively facing here on earth, for example.

Now, it is not uncommon for people to not want to face the gravity of the situation on earth, or the grave situations in their own lives, like in the song, where John Mayer sings "Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me" and "Just keep me where the light is" is like wanting to turn a blind eye from the grave, serious and critical things that require our attention, focus and intervention, while also wanting to only experience the 'positive' things in life, where the "light is".

For me, this song has me looking back on my life to all of the grave situations Ive faced, the deaths, the heartbreaks, the losses, the hurts, the struggles, the falls, the shames - and with the feel and tone of the song, I want to look at it as if life has been a constant beating down, as if some outside force is coming in and doing this unto me...

"Gravity is working against me, And gravity wants to bring me down".

...and then the song is like a pleading to stop, like saying 'please just stop and leave me alone and let me experience the light'.

It's interesting because in looking at this point I had a re-listen to the gravity recordings from EQAFE, where gravity itself explains its role in the creation and manifestation process, where we, each and every one of us, are in fact the creators of our own lives, realities and experiences, and the force of gravity in multi-dimensions has played a role in this self-creation process through the compression and layering of physical reality and the realities of each one of us.

Now, since the opening of the portal and the changes in existence, gravity is actually working WITH our beingness potentials, and supporting us through this manifestation process, where everything that happens to us, the good, the bad and the ugly, is all specific and is Here to assist and support us to shape, form, mold and create ourselves into and as our utmost potential selves, so long as we work WITH events, situations and play-outs in our lives moment-to-moment, breath by breath - which the only way it can be done.

So, it's in a way funny and ironic that John Mayor sings;

"Gravity is working against me

And gravity wants to bring me down"

When in fact, all gravity is asking of us is to work WITH it, to work WITH reality and everything that comes up and happens in our lives, in our minds and in our bodies, so that we can actually use our creative force to create, form and shape that potential that is here in terms of having all the ingredients as the words, the expressions, the forgiveness and changes we are capable of - all of it here at our fingertips.

So it's also quite ironic when he says:

"Oh I'll never know what makes this man

With all the love that his heart can stand

Dream of ways to throw it all away",

When in fact it is revealed in the recording that we know exactly what makes us (as it is US making/creating ourselves), and the 'throwing it all away" is the simple act of not taking self-responsibility for our own creation by blaming it on an outside force as if it is being done 'unto' us and thus apparently not within our own self-directive principle to direct.

My takeaways here are thus to embrace gravity, as it grounds me to this earth, and to face the grave part of myself, not flee to the light, but to delve into the gravity of the situations I have created and "dream of ways" to change them in terms of finding solutions to the problems and walking them through step by step, day by day. And to also look back on my life, and instead of focusing on all the hardships and difficulties, to focus on those parts of myself that I cultivated and accessed in order to get through them, to rise to the occasion, and to overcome them to the point that I am still here today, still walking, still pushing and still never, ever giving up.

From EQAFE - Gravity: The Origins of Gravity - Earth, Nature, and Weather:

Part One

"What if gravity was a force that not only existed in our three dimensional world, but also in levels of reality that we have not considered?
We know that gravity is a force that compresses and holds things together - but how far exactly does this force go and how have previous civilizations in history used this knowledge?"
 

Part Two

"Are you understanding the gravity of the situation?
That is a term we hear when we need to get clear about an issue and our responsibility within it. But what does that practically mean?
What role does gravity have to play in each moment of our lives, and how can we best use this understanding when facing challenges?"

Gravity Live in L.A.

Day 263 - Learning with Horses at the Desteni Farm and OMG I AM SO PROGRAMMED!

I had an equine therapy session with Sylvia van Overschot yesterday, where I was instructed to do a number of tasks with a horse of my choosing. After each task we would discuss the ups and downs, triumphs and difficulties, and then I was asked to relate how I handled the situations with the horse to my daily life outside the training ring. Joealso joined us to see how these sessions work, and it was interesting for me to go first, and then to observe someone else to see how they handle a similar situation. 

 

Going through the experience first-hand, then watching Joe do it, combined with the Destonians.com group chat about ‘control’ led by Gian, all together opened up some deeper layers of myself and how I function that was very cool for me to see.

You may have had this experience yourself, where your mind shifts to ‘school-mode’, meaning, you are now in a situation where you are being instructed, and people are watching, almost like you are performing. I call this school-mode because for me, when I am in such situations it triggers memories of being in school, where I was reprimanded or disciplined in front of others, and without the emotional tools to deal with it in a constructive way, it left me feeling bad, wrong and ‘not good enough’, instead of opening my eyes to the learning experience taking place.

Over the years, and like many students, I developed coping mechanisms to deal with these situations, where, instead of learning the skill and exploring myself within the mistakes, I learned how to be as ‘perfect’ as possible, avoiding mistakes at all costs, and moulding and manipulating myself like clay to fit the exact shape that I thought was expected of me. My internal experience during this process is usually nervousness, petrification to make a mistake, and fear of embarrassment. It’s almost like MKUltra programming, where a certain environment or set-up will trigger this ‘coping’ and ‘surviving’ character automatically without me having made the conscious decision to bring these aspects of myself out. This is a life-mission for me, to identify my own programming and correct it, so that I no longer feel like an expressive, inquisitive, adventurous person who, in moments (many many moments throughout each day) becomes trapped within my own body, where so many of my awesome qualities get pushed down and hidden, and this automatron version of myself emerges to take over to handle and cope with emotionally intense situations. 

Now, this may be surprising to hear about how much I was actually reacting inside myself, because I was with people that I was comfortable with, people that have a proven track record of supporting me quite unconditionally. I was in a familiar space and working with horses that I have spent time with every day for the past year. I realize that it is different for everyone, but because of the intensity of the memories from my past, this particular programming was very well ingrained into me, where the ‘coping’ character comes up and out more easily and naturally than the inquisitive, expressive, adventurous parts of myself that I had locked down due to fear of making a mistake. And when I do push to bring up different expressions of myself, I feel exceptionally vulnerable, exposed and terrified, as if I was being marched naked down the public streets and being shamed by the crowds – which is exactly how I felt as a young child being reprimanded in front of the classroom – having past experiences coming into the present moments and haunting me to this day.

Luckily I have the tools to release myself from this past, and to develop those qualities that I DO have in me, but have just been neglected and under-developed. 

But first, see how these memories played out in my present moment: I walked through the tasks with the horse, where I was to direct the horse in some circles, and then lead him to a specific location. The horse thought it was lunch time, and kept going into his stable expecting to be fed. I chose to use the harness to direct the horse. Within these exercises I realized it was cool to let go of my desire to be able to direct the horse without a harness, and use the harness as support because I simply don’t have that relationship of trust yet developed with the horse. But the thing is, when the horse would want to go a different way, I would feel nervous, helpless and powerless, and would depend on the harness to basically control the horse, gently of course, but it did not feel like a ‘working together’, but rather a force and control. 

However, what I did in that moment was think to myself: mission complete! The horse did what I wanted and I said all the right things, I did it perfectly! Golden star please! 

The realizations I had about controlling and forcing only came after, when I was watching Joe do his session. He chose not to use the harness, and was able to successfully walk his horse in the circles. Then, he was supposed to lead the horse into a circle of ropes on the ground representing his ‘personal space’. Again, not using the harness, Joe tried to direct his horse, but the horse would not leave the stable. “FAIL” was my initial reaction! But then Joe explained his process, where he saw the horse’s stable as the horse’s ‘personal space’, and that he did not want Joe in there, and did not want to leave his stable. Joe said that he could accept that, and walked away. He did not force, he did not control. 

My mind was like “No! That is not the rules of engagement here, you were supposed to get the horse out!” As if Joe had broken the rules lol! But in that moment, I did not follow these thoughts and backchat, but rather asked myself: What can I learn here? I realized that I actually admired the fact that Joe did not follow the rules, in fact, part of the introduction to the session was that WE were the boss, and could determine what the rules were. But because I had shifted into ‘school-mode’, I became an instant rule follower, and did not give myself any room to explore things like, did I really take the time to connect to and consider the horse, or consider who I am with the horse? The truth is, I didn’t. And so any authority, connection, cooperation I had developed with this horse over the past year was basically thrown out the window. In other words, because of my fear of making a mistake, I threw away any real connection and cooperation I had developed with the horse in the past, and instead went into controlling the horse to do what I wanted'.

Immediately, I wanted to go back and do it over, now with my new understanding, but I realized that would still be falling into the same pattern of ‘doing it right’, ‘doing it properly’ instead of just doing it as who I am in that moment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that mistakes are bad, wrong and shameful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the fear of making mistakes, which exists only in my mind, above the REAL connection I have created and can continue to create with those around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to the memory of my school years, where I was reprimanded in front of the class for making mistakes, by reacting to these memories and trying to prevent any similar situation from ever happening again, instead of gracefully making mistakes, walking through that fear, and realizing that on the other side of that fear is learning, expansion and growth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within ‘shame’, ‘not good enough’ and ‘petrification’ when I was reprimanded in front of the class for making mistakes, because I took it personally, as if it was about me as a person, a living being, within the belief that I as a living being requires the validation and approval of the teacher, and the school and the report card to prove my value and worth as a living being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that my value and worth can be determined by anything outside of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think or believe that making a mistake and being reprimanded for it means it’s really very bad, so bad that it means I am not living properly or correctly, and thus I should be yelled at, devalued and disapproved of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to secretly, within myself feel ashamed because I really, truly in fact knew that I could have done better in school, with my schoolwork.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate  within and as self-defeat, where a part of my natural expression was pushed back and defeated due to the intensity of the emotional experience I accepted and allowed in terms of being bad, wrong and not-good-enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the words and tone of the teacher, and believe with everything that I am/was, that it was about me, without seeing, realizing and understanding the stresses of a teacher, the individual life of the teacher, the emotional state of the teacher, and the fact that the frustration and anger she was expressing had less to do with me, and more to do with her, her life, her process, her current reality, and for that, I forgive her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that all the students in the class agreed with my perception that I was bad, wrong, not-good-enough, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it was my own self-belief that I was projecting on to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project onto the students the ways in which I was feeling about myself, the self-judgment and self-depreciating thoughts, thinking and believing it was coming from or being confirmed by THEM instead of realizing and understanding that they most likely, from a starting point of fearing being in my position, were more reacting within and as survival in a class of competitors/competition, where it would feel good to see someone else reprimanded in front of the class, a relief that it is not you, and knowing that your work will probably be better than the one that got the mistakes, and so you will not be bad, less-than, not-good-enough, which indicates a participation in the exact same programming I was accessing, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the same when it was ever somebody else getting reprimanded, instead of speaking up for them, emphasizing them, or finding some way within my means to support them, I would instead sit back with a sigh of relief and say “yes, YOU are bad, YOU are not good-enough, YOU are less-than”, because so long as there is somebody in that position, it will not have to be me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that an event, situation or person outside myself can ever touch that part of me that is eternal and unwavering, my self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that my self-expression needs to be validated and approved by some outside source in order for me to live it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become self-conscious when I am in a position to explore my self-expression in front of others, wherein I become preoccupied with what they may be thinking, judging, believing and perceiving, because I think and believe that I need their mind’s approval or else I will be making a mistake and will be humiliated, shamed, bad and not good enough.

When and as I see I am fearing making a ‘mistake’ in situations of exploring myself,  my self-expression and/or in a learning process, I stop and I breathe. I bring my focus from self-consciousness to self-connection by stopping my participation in wondering about the thoughts of others, and instead focus on connecting to self and those I am working with.

I commit myself to focus on self-connection and connection to others.

I commit myself to stop valuing what other’s may think of me over the creation of self-connection/connection with others.

I commit myself to NOT prevent myself from making mistakes, but to make mistakes and learn from them.

I commit myself to walk through my fears when I make mistakes, and to realize that on the other side of that fear is learning and growth.