Showing posts with label potential. Show all posts
Showing posts with label potential. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Gravity: A Beautiful Coward's Song: micro-blog from Desteni Universe



Looking at John Mayer's song 'Gravity', a song that strikes deep, yearning, mourning and soulful chords in me, bringing it back to self to see what exactly this song accesses on deeper levels.

I like the use of the word 'gravity' in the song because of its dual meaning. On the one hand, it is the "force of attraction by which terrestrial bodies tend to fall toward the center of the earth", while on the other hand it also refers to the "serious or critical nature" of an issue, like the gravity of the situation we are collectively facing here on earth, for example.

Now, it is not uncommon for people to not want to face the gravity of the situation on earth, or the grave situations in their own lives, like in the song, where John Mayer sings "Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me" and "Just keep me where the light is" is like wanting to turn a blind eye from the grave, serious and critical things that require our attention, focus and intervention, while also wanting to only experience the 'positive' things in life, where the "light is".

For me, this song has me looking back on my life to all of the grave situations Ive faced, the deaths, the heartbreaks, the losses, the hurts, the struggles, the falls, the shames - and with the feel and tone of the song, I want to look at it as if life has been a constant beating down, as if some outside force is coming in and doing this unto me...

"Gravity is working against me, And gravity wants to bring me down".

...and then the song is like a pleading to stop, like saying 'please just stop and leave me alone and let me experience the light'.

It's interesting because in looking at this point I had a re-listen to the gravity recordings from EQAFE, where gravity itself explains its role in the creation and manifestation process, where we, each and every one of us, are in fact the creators of our own lives, realities and experiences, and the force of gravity in multi-dimensions has played a role in this self-creation process through the compression and layering of physical reality and the realities of each one of us.

Now, since the opening of the portal and the changes in existence, gravity is actually working WITH our beingness potentials, and supporting us through this manifestation process, where everything that happens to us, the good, the bad and the ugly, is all specific and is Here to assist and support us to shape, form, mold and create ourselves into and as our utmost potential selves, so long as we work WITH events, situations and play-outs in our lives moment-to-moment, breath by breath - which the only way it can be done.

So, it's in a way funny and ironic that John Mayor sings;

"Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down"

When in fact, all gravity is asking of us is to work WITH it, to work WITH reality and everything that comes up and happens in our lives, in our minds and in our bodies, so that we can actually use our creative force to create, form and shape that potential that is here in terms of having all the ingredients as the words, the expressions, the forgiveness and changes we are capable of - all of it here at our fingertips.

So it's also quite ironic when he says:

"Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away",

When in fact it is revealed in the recording that we know exactly what makes us (as it is US making/creating ourselves), and the 'throwing it all away" is the simple act of not taking self-responsibility for our own creation by blaming it on an outside force as if it is being done 'unto' us and thus apparently not within our own self-directive principle to direct.

My takeaways here are thus to embrace gravity, as it grounds me to this earth, and to face the grave part of myself, not flee to the light, but to delve into the gravity of the situations I have created and "dream of ways" to change them in terms of finding solutions to the problems and walking them through step by step, day by day. And to also look back on my life, and instead of focusing on all the hardships and difficulties, to focus on those parts of myself that I cultivated and accessed in order to get through them, to rise to the occasion, and to overcome them to the point that I am still here today, still walking, still pushing and still never, ever giving up.

From EQAFE - Gravity: The Origins of Gravity - Earth, Nature, and Weather:


"What if gravity was a force that not only existed in our three dimensional world, but also in levels of reality that we have not considered?
We know that gravity is a force that compresses and holds things together - but how far exactly does this force go and how have previous civilizations in history used this knowledge?"
 
Part Two

"Are you understanding the gravity of the situation?
That is a term we hear when we need to get clear about an issue and our responsibility within it. But what does that practically mean?
What role does gravity have to play in each moment of our lives, and how can we best use this understanding when facing challenges?"

Gravity Live in L.A.

Sunday, August 26, 2018

Day 257 - Chasing Life Instead of Living Life




What does it mean to ‘chase life’ rather than to ‘live life’?

For me it involved goals: academic goals, relationship goals, location goals, career goals, family goals and so on.

I would create a goal for myself and then figure out a path to get there, and I would walk that path, adjusting along the way. For me, at the time, this was sufficient and the 'right' way to 'fully live life', because I was accomplishing the things I set out to do.

The ‘chasing’ comes in when I would project the goal into the future, and then project ‘who I would be’ when I got there, thinking and believing that my self-experience would change once I accomplished the goal.

The thing is, when I would complete the goal, I would still inevitably be the same person. I would have the same insecurities, the same uncertainties, and I also noticed that new insecurities and uncertainties would open up once the goal was reached, as the habit and pattern of participation into such things in my mind still existed.

It is humbling to look back over the past decade and realize that throughout all my accomplishments, all the effort and hard work, I was missing one huge, important main ingredient: SELF HERE.
I never focused on sinking into my own skin, integrating into my environment, and establishing a foundation of self wherever I was, because I was always moving, changing directions, living places temporarily, keeping only one foot in the present moment and another foot in the future projection: constantly chasing ideas as future goals. 

The consequence of this is that there is little to no SELF (who I am, as I am RIGHT NOW) in the goals, there is only a projected version of ‘who I will become then’, only once I get there, as if the walking of the path and the attaining of the goal was the most important defining action that would shape and create me.

My first reaction to this realization was that I had been doing it all wrong and now I am back at square one, but these actions or elements of the process of self-creation are essential ingredients, and all is not lost. Along the way, I self-introspected, gained self-understanding and awareness, developed skills and qualities that I now have and cannot be taken away. I also gained work experience, degrees, certifications and money, which can serve me now and in the future.

What I was missing was a solid foundation of ‘self here’. Self Here meaning, the understanding and realization that I can be fully whole, fulfilled and present in the Here/Now moment, that I belong here, wherever I am, simply because it is where I have placed myself in awareness. I created a path, and I am walking it – I don’t have to wait to attain something or accomplish anything in order to develop these things, I have everything I need to build my SELF right here and right now, wherein everything that I am not satisfied with or that I want to develop can only happen right here, right now in the present moment wherever I am. And it is not only possible, but rather absolutely essential that I do so, otherwise I will never become the potential I see, because I had placed it in the future, in a job, in a location, at a certain salary and with a certain life.

To be continued in my next blog….

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Day 127- From Slave to Master of Myself

This blog is continued from:

Within this blog I am continuing to
write out my self-commitments and self-corrective applications in order to release myself from the self-created frustration I experience in my life, specifically here in regards to becoming frustrated while doing my studies.
I first lay out the self-forgiveness, from which I derive the self-commitments and self-corrective application which further reveal the things I participate within/as that limit and diminish me.

For the entire blog series which deals with the point of becoming an effective student, click Here. .
It’s interesting to see that within this single point of looking at all the things that prevent me from effectively completing my studies, I am revealing to myself larger patterns and habits which I have accepted and allowed to play out in my life, pattern and habits that I have literally become, which are self-destructive and have, over time, become issues that have held me back from so much potential that I had never realized.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to NOT realize that dealing with resistances in the moment may seem painful, but not dealing with them, and instead succumbing to them creates way more pain and suffering in my life.
I commit myself to being and becoming one with and equal to the resistances I experience, wherein I would literally stand within myself with/as them, instead of being less-than them wherein they would lead me and direct me to succumb, but within a oneness with/as them, and an equality to/as them, I can then take ownership of them, and responsibility for them, and thus empower myself to direct myself as them, in order to stop and phase them out as myself, and then direct myself in self-awareness to continue to support myself as Life Here.
 
When and as I see that I am facing or falling in the face of a resistance, I stop, and I breathe. I direct myself to become equal to and one with that resistance with the entirety of my being, and to stop and pull myself up and out of the trap of resistance, by literally forcing myself up, pulling myself by the bootstraps and continuing on to place one foot in front of the other in self-direction. I see, realize and understand that I will think that the resistance is the most important thing and it will feel like I should not stop, but I do NOT fall for this tactic any more. I also see, realize and understand that it will feel like the emptiest most meaningless moment in my life after I stop myself from participating within/as a resistance, or being directed by a resistance, but that it is also a short lived experience from which I will emerge a little stronger, a little wiser, a little more directive, self-trusting and self-assured, so long as I remain the directive-principle of me.
 
 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to postpone consequences.

I commit myself to live the realization that postponing consequences only leads to more consequences.

When and as I see that I am faing a consequence, such as an emotional energetic ‘low’ or ‘high’, a conflict, damage to myself, a situation that I have created, or any othe such consequence, I stop, and I breathe. I direct myself to take myself back from the influence of feeling/emotion energy, and walk myself back to self-direction by looking at the consequence and self-honestly assessing the best possible steps to take in order to control the damages. This could as simple as stopping my participation within/as it, or by writing it out in self-forgiveness in order to expose how I created it and script myself out into a solution that will support me.
To be continued…
To learn these self-supportive writing tools visit: DIP LFor the entire series leading up to this blog: Here.