This blog is continued from yesterday’s blog.
Within this
blog I am reading self-forgiveness
statements and deriving self-corrective statements and self-corrective
applications therefrom. It’s interesting to place the mind on paper
in this way, in forgiveness, because one can then clearly see
what goes on in the darkness of the mind, as it is brought out into the light
where it can be clearly seen, in the physical world. In forgiveness one can
look at one’s mind without reaction, without judgment, and without excuses.
It’s ‘hard’ to do at times,
but because it is done in forgiveness and a commitment to change, it is always
beneficial. Like the parable of the prodigal son, forgiveness allows one to come
back to self, forgive self, and change one’s ways to that which is
best/beneficial to self/all.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate and con myself that ‘what I want’ and what will ‘make me happy’ is being able to fuck off and ‘do whatever’, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that what I really want is a world where all life is supported, including me, and this involves me first supporting myself in every way, to prove to myself that such support is in fact possible, and then to do it, so that I become a living expression of it, wherein I can support others as myself, unconditionally.
I commit myself to unconditional self-support, no matter how far my mind goes into self-judgment, inferiority and /or superiority etc, because I see, realize and understand that all life is ‘innocent’ because as Life, we did not know what we were doing, however, within this ignorance, there is still responsibility- a responsibility to self, and a responsibility to change and live the message of equality and oneness, which is to support others as myself, in this, to love my neighbor as myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate and con myself that ‘what I want’ and what will ‘make me happy’ is being able to fuck off and ‘do whatever’, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that what I really want is a world where all life is supported, including me, and this involves me first supporting myself in every way, to prove to myself that such support is in fact possible, and then to do it, so that I become a living expression of it, wherein I can support others as myself, unconditionally.
I commit myself to unconditional self-support, no matter how far my mind goes into self-judgment, inferiority and /or superiority etc, because I see, realize and understand that all life is ‘innocent’ because as Life, we did not know what we were doing, however, within this ignorance, there is still responsibility- a responsibility to self, and a responsibility to change and live the message of equality and oneness, which is to support others as myself, in this, to love my neighbor as myself.
When and as I see that I am wasting time doing things without awareness or direction, wherein, I am simply ‘going through the motions’ without point or purpose, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to awareness and direction by supporting myself to become aware of Who I Am within that which I am doing, in order that I may begin to direct myself in the moment, to look in self-honesty at what it is that I’m avoiding, what self-responsibility am I not taking, and distracting myself instead with this mindless activity. I support myself to take a breath, to stop participating in the time-wasting, responsibility-avoiding activity, and to instead to push through the resistances by facing them head on, and doing exactly that which I am avoiding.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to NOT see, realize and understand that supporting myself will involve letting go of many habits that I like, but which do not support me, and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not want to go through the withdrawal from these habits/patterns that I have lived with and become so accustomed to and comfortable with.
I commit myself to support myself to realize that the pain I letting go of a habit is always less than the consequences of continuing the habits over a lifetime.
I commit myself to be and become the living realization that commonsense
dictates that I should support myself in all ways, and support others as me in
all ways possible, to together realize that what we need to be is
self-responsible co-creators of this world, so that all may be supported
instead of fighting each other tooth and nail to survive in a world of plenty.
When and as I see that I am participating in a pattern or habit that I like
because it gives me good/positive/comforting
feelings,
I stop, and I breathe. I support myself to push myself to let go, to breathe
through the energetic withdrawal, and to direct myself to instead do something
practical in the moment, and concentrate on my breath till I am stable again-
no matter how long it takes. I remind myself of what I have realized: that just
because it feels good does not mean it is best for me, and sometimes the
hardest things I will face will be the most supportive.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have become so accustomed to and comfortable with destructive habits and patterns that it seems scary and impossible to live without them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have become so accustomed to and comfortable with destructive habits and patterns that it seems scary and impossible to live without them.
fear that keeps me bound
to comfort and security, and I commit myself to walk
into the unknown of myself in forgiveness, so that I may walk as a me
created in principle, not likes and dislikes, but rather the principle of being
part of and equal to the whole of creation that is Here, and to not accept or
allow anything less than that.
When and as I see that I have stopped myself from participating in a pattern or habit, but am being ‘tempted’ back to doing it because of the fear of ‘what comes next’? and the belief that I will never ‘feel okay again’ without it, I STOP, and I BREATHE. I support myself to realize that this is a necessary abyss to cross, and that all that it takes is simplicity, simplistically placing one foot in front of the next, doing ANYTHING but returning to the habit/pattern, until I no longer feel the desire within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear who I will be and become if I let go of old habits and patterns and support myself unconditionally.
I commit myself to become that which it is necessary to be in order to be an equal being Here, one with everyone else, and not an individual ‘I’ in self-interest, as I have become so accustomed to, as we all have become so accustomed to, that we do not realize there is another way.
When and as I see that I am not supporting myself due to fear of letting go of my ‘who I am’ and ‘what the habit/pattern gives me’, I stop, and I breathe. I push myself to support myself to fearlessly let it go, to throw it away and never look back, within the realization that Who I Am is created in every breath, every moment, and so in every moment I can make that decision to let go of those things that are diminishing, limiting and destructive towards me. Because I see, realize and understand that there is no choice in the matter of the fact.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing old habits and patterns of living that don’t support me.
I commit myself to stop defining myself, and defining life and what Life is by habits and patterns- to see, realize and understand that habits and patterns are NOT Life, and that if I am to be Life, I make that decision in every moment- whereas habits and patterns are not decisions made in awareness, but rather automatic, automated behavior that is more robotic than living, and that is not acceptable because it diminishes me and does not serve me in any way, and why would I participate and give energy to things that o not serve me? What makes sense is to support myself, and to support others to make the change, live the commitment and walk together to create a world we would want to leave our children. THAT is service.
When and as I see that I do not want to let go of a habit or pattern that I have always accepted and allowed to play out in my life, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to awareness within the understanding that I will have to face all my biggest fears, so I support myself to prepare, practice and program myself to self-movement, wherein I face my fears, such as letting go of habits, as if it were as easy as taking a breath, because in reality, it is that simple.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system of judgment of ‘like’ and ‘dislike’ to exist within and as me and direct me, even though I don’t even know when/how I created it, and even though I see it has a destructive/diminishing effect within/as/in my life.
I commit myself to create and design myself in awareness by slowly walking the process out of the automation of the mind, and into the living reality of the physical, out of the highs and lows of energy, and into the stability of the physical.
When and as I see that I am being pulled and pushed by pursuing ‘likes and avoiding ‘dislikes’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-direction within the realization that that which is supportive to me is not necessarily going to be perceived by my mind as ‘feel-good’, thus I support myself to face the biggest challenge of stopping listening to the logic of the mind, of ‘likes’ and ‘dislikes’, and to instead listen to the common sense of Life Here, that doing that which supports me to stand as an equal participant in/as life, will create outflows and results that are best for all, and thus best for me.
To be continued...
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