Day 186- OCD: Vicious Cycles to Practical Solutions 2

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I forgive myself for  not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that  the strength I feel  that comes in cycles is not necessarily something I actually directed myself to, but rather simply the upside of a cycle within which I would have experienced the down  side of the ‘low’ just before, with the rise being mostly only an inevitability for one that has not given up completely, thus making the disorder at times bearable enough to not have to really face changing or stopping for real.  ( Day 184- OCD: The False Victories)

When and as I see myself going into a positive energetic self-relationship as a result of the polarity opposite of having experienced a down or low, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-stability by breathing through and letting go of the experience, and settling into my physical body by adjusting myself to ensure I am supporting myself physically. I breathe until the reaction is gone, and move myself from the point of no reaction, only myself moving based on sound decision.

 I commit myself to pull myself down out of highs as self-support to prevent the consequence of the inevitable low that is the polarity opposite of the high, a polarity within which I cannot participate with/as the experience of one without the other, thus creating and perpetuating a vicious cycle of OCD.

I commit myself to remain self-honest when and as I see that I am having experiences within my process with CD, so as not to fool myself that any progress is going to come on its own. Self-growth, self-stability, the building of resolve, the strengthening of self-will, self-discipline, self-mastery, and all and every quality I strive for, will only ever be developed as a result of my direct and focused participation. None of these things work themselves out or simply ‘occur’ as a matter of chance or mere intention. If I feel strength, I will know right away whether that strength is who I am as a living word because I will be aware of exactly how I became that. If there is uncertainty regarding how the experience came about, then I know it can’t be trusted and will always be questionable.

I commit myself to face changing and stopping for real.

This blog is continued from:
Day 143- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face
Day 144- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face (pt 2)
Day 145- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face (pt 3)
Day 146- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face (pt 4

 Day 147- The Comfort and Security of OCD 

Day 185- Dermatillomania: Vicious Cycles to Practical Solutions 1

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Day 185- Dermatillomania: Vicious Cycles to Practical Solutions 1

"I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give myself slack and loosen my grip on the reigns in my life when and as I am on the upside of the cycle of OCD."

When and as I see that I am on the upside of a cyclical pattern within OCD I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-direction by stopping myself within the reactions I develop towards the upside of a cycle or pattern. Meaning, the positive energetic relationships I would develop through projecting thoughts/ideas/perceptions and beliefs such as ‘how it will be from now on’, and ’how much better I will feel when I stop’, ‘how great it will be’, and ‘I will soon be cured’- all of this within and as a blind hope that somehow I had figured it all out and am experiencing the fruits of my labour, when in fact when I look at it in self-honesty I see there is still very little understanding on my part, and very little actual practical steps toward change.  This thus then indicating I am still resisting taking self-responsibility within and as this disorder, and would still rather prefer some form of miracle or outside force to ‘fix’ and ‘change me’ and do the work for me, however I know very well that this is not something I can depend on and thus, not worth spending any time waiting for. I know very well I’d only ever be waiting for myself.

I commit myself to take responsibility for myself within and as this disorder, by writing it out, creating practical steps, and pushing myself to live and apply the words and the scripts I write for myself.

I commit myself to stop feeding and perpetuating the relationships I have developed to and towards the upside of a vicious cycle, by stopping my reaction to/towards them, and instead reminding myself that I am taking self-responsibility for who I am within and as this disorder, thus I will not base myself on the false hope of something or some force outside of myself coming to cure me by some form of miracle.

I commit myself to stop developing positive relationship to/towards the upside of an OCD cycle because  I realize this causes me to fear to lose the positive feeling energy and thus prevents me from actually wanting to change for real.

I commit myself to change for real, by stopping the energetic relationships before they manifest into and as actions that collectively create this disorder.

This blog is continued from:
Day 143- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face
Day 144- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face (pt 2)
Day 145- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face (pt 3)
Day 146- Dermatillomania: Staring the Beast in the Face (pt 4

 Day 147- The Comfort and Security of OCD

 Day 184- OCD: The False Victories

To script yourself back into alignment with and as Life, learn these self-supportive writing tools, visit: DIP LITE- a free course where you will learn to create a platform of self-support to be able to face yourself in forgiveness and acceptance, and recreate yourself through your own self-realization, in a way that honours and supports yourself to Live a Life that benefits yourself and others. 

Day 170- CSP: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 2)

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This blog is continued from:

Day 168- OCD: Thoughts that Create my Own Prison

Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly

 For context, I would suggesting reading these blogs first.
Click here for a description of CSP.

Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else:

When and as I see that I am inspecting myself so thoroughly that I perceive any 'imperfection’ as a detriment to my value as a human being, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance within the realization that this type of perfection is unrealistic and unobtainable because the skin is constantly processing and removing toxins and blemishes are a result of the natural functioning of the skin’s processing, and to judge myself and my value upon this is simply the result of what I have programmed within myself of what value is, according to what I observed around me.

I commit myself to walk the process toward self-value based on what I create myself as Here as Life, creating value as Life as my input, thus creating value as Life as my output- wherein my output contribute toward a world that values Life over beauty, glamour, fashions and appearance.

When and as I see that I am being influenced in any way based on my appearance or the appearance of another, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty by reminding myself that I simply cannot judge another unless I had lived their life, I cannot diminish life by judging it through my eyes that have been programmed from a young age through media, advertising, Hollywood, and other environmental influences; including other beings in my environment that had been influenced by the exact same forces, thus confirming to me a false reality that corporations and industries have spent immense resources on creating, while half the world starves.

I commit myself to breathe through my reactions, judgments, thoughts, ideas, perceptions an beliefs when I interact with others, and instead base my interaction from a starting point of equality and oneness, wherein I am equal to the other, and one with them- valuing them as myself.

I commit myself to stand by my principles, if I experience myself in the presence of another that does not value life, but rather diminishes it with ill intentions, to stand within myself by stopping my participation with such individuals until I am no longer influenced by such a character, and can instead stand unconditionally.

When and as I see that I am diminishing myself by thinking myself ugly, or exalting myself by thinking myself beautiful, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-equality within the understanding and realization that such an internal experience is nothing more than a program I created through outside influences since childhood, and that such programs have created massive abuse and inequality by accepting/allowing such externalized judgment to be any kind of indicator of value/worth.

I commit myself to submit myself to equality with/as those I perceive as ugly, and equality with/as those I perceive as beautiful, thus removing the competition in order that we may work together on the actual real problems in the world- common problems for a common people, so that we may experience for the first time, true individuality and true self-expression, instead of the kind we’re used to today, which is purchased from corporations and businesses and is actually nothing more than conformity in all regards.

When and as I feel unworthy within who I am because my picture presentation does not match the pictures in the magazines and on television and movies, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-love and self-equality by reminding myself that beauty has been sold to me as a product in exchange for my actual real value, and that the consumption of this illusion is my choice, and the illusion is not the beauty itself, but the perceived happiness/fulfillment/joy/bliss/importance the beings in the pictures present themselves as, which is obviously not true, and if it were, it would be so in the face of global atrocities and thus complete and utter self-interest with an absolute disregard for life.  I realize that did not realize I had a choice, but rather instead trusted my internal energetic experience as separation, as ‘me’ and ‘them’, and longing to experience what ‘they’ experience, instead of ‘US’, working together towards actual solutions for this world- both internal and external. 

i commit myself to 

When and as I see that I am fearing being ugly, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by reminding myself of the absolute self-limitation involved in basing myself on external appearance only.

I commit myself to create and enhance my worth through thought, word and deed.

When and as I see that I fear the way I will be treating due to my appearance, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-stability by reminding myself that the treatment I am receiving from others is the result of their own programming through their own life experience and societal, cultural, and familial influences, equal to and one with how I had been/become, thus realizing it has absolutely Nothing to do with me or who I am, and has entirely to do with mind-processes that disregard the value of Life.

I commit myself to value myself and others as Life, by stopping the conscious or subconscious judgments I have thus far accepted/allowed myself to exist as. 

I commit myself to replace judgment with actual self-standing and actual support for myself and others, and to use my judgment only to determine that which is beneficial to Life and that which is not.

To script yourself back into alignment with and as Life, learn these self-supportive writing tools, visit: DIP LITE- a free course where you will learn to create a platform of self-support to be able to face yourself in forgiveness and acceptance, and recreate yourself through your own self-realization, in a way that honours you and supports yourself to Live a Life worth Living.