Self-Forgiveness
Standing as the Owner of Abusive Animal Industries
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create facilities
where animals are abused in order to obtain profit and personal gain.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself so
much so from life, the reality of life on this earth, and other life forms,
that I can blind myself to their pain and suffering, and distract, amuse,
preoccupy, obsess about, enjoy, worry and stress about money, financial gain,
personal wealth, security, self-interest and power as a way to continuously not
see, avoid and ignore what it is I am creating for others to endure.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and excuse my
acceptance, allowance, enabling and direct creation and participation in the
abuse of other life forms, by telling myself that I am doing it for money, for security,
to provide for my family, to create jobs, to contribute to the economy, for my country,
to feed people, or for any other reason, justification or excuse.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive
that because it is not happening directly to me, because I cannot feel it and
do not have to look at it, that the abuse I am creating, enabling, accepting
and allowing is not affecting me, when in fact it is, either directly or
indirectly.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself that this
is just the way the world is, and I do not have the power to change it, so I
might as well profit from it like everybody else is, instead of stopping
my participation in the current accepted and allowed systems of abuse, and
focusing instead on solutions that work for everyone.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think an believe that
solutions that are best for all are impossible, because I refuse to look or to
see beyond the current reality, and refuse to challenge myself and my way of
looking and seeing.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR challenging myself
and my way of looking and seeing, because I know that if I do, and if I see
solutions, I will then have to apparently give up or ‘lose’ my wealth, my
security, my profit, the security I am creating for my family, my power, my prestige,
and everything I have worked so hard for and gained through my participation in
this industry, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that in creating
solutions that are best for all, all will benefit, and that includes myself, my
family and future generations.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and what
I look at when it comes to survival in this world, where I think only of myself,
my family and those directly in my life, wherein I will do whatever it takes no
matter the cost to others, myself or future generations, using the
justification, validation and excuse that it is a dog-eat-dog world that exist
within and as the principle of ‘survival of the fittest’, and I will make sure
that I survive at all costs, instead of seeing ,realizing and understanding how
this current reality was created in the first place, and how, within and
through my participation in such thoughts, beliefs, perceptions and the actions
that come from them, that I am directly and indirectly continuing to create reality
in this way, wherein I will be leaving a more insecure reality for my children
and future generations.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, through not seeing
the relationship between how I am creating reality and then reacting in fear to
that creation, create a repeating cycle that feeds and amplifies itself, wherein
our reality will become more and more insecure, as I try and attempt to more and
more secure myself and my family, by being and becoming more and more ruthless,
which in turn creates a more a more ruthless reality that I am leaving for my
children’s children – whom I cannot protect nor secure in the dog-eat-dog world
of survival that I am currently contributing to and creating every day.
Within
this:
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, instead of stopping
my participation in the endless cycles of fear in my mind, actually go mad,
become obsessed and possessed by gaining and getting more and more security as
more money and more power, in an endless fight to secure myself and my family
in a battle to protect them from this world and reality which can never be won,
but instead of grounding myself and seeing the common sense, I instead fear,
fight, control, manipulate and abuse to appease my fear, my madness, my
obsession and my possession.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love, desire, cherish
and honour money above life.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love, desire, cherish
and honour my self interest above all of life.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love, desire, cherish
and honour my life-style, my comfort zones, my wants/needs/desires and my way
of life above all of Life that is Here.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and
perceive there is no other way.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive
that I cannot be or become a seed or an agent of change in my current life
situation and reality.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing
everything I have.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting down
those around me.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that animals do not feel pain.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive
that an animals suffering is in any way less painful than my suffering or the
suffering of my loved ones.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself torture and abuse parts
of myself for the personal ‘gain’ of my desired experience.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my
connectedness and interconnectedness with all of life and everything that is
here.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and
understand my responsibility and self-responsibility in my own life and in this
reality.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my responsibility
to my shareholders above my self-responsibility and my responsibility to all of
life.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place man-made laws
above doing what’s best for all.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe and
perceive that the only way to change is to break laws which would compromise me
and so I will not do it, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that
laws are man-made and thus changeable, and I can be one voice of change, one
seed that grows, one point of influence to stand as an example for others for a
transformation and change in man-made laws, to be and become laws that honour,
cherish, respect and love all of life here within the current limitations of our
shared physical reality.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed laws that do not honour
cherish, respect and show demonstrable, provable love towards all life.
The
Factory worker
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to physically abuse animals.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and
perceive that animals are less than me.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my anger out on
animals.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take out my anger,
frustration and the abuse that has been done unto me by an abusive system on to
the animals at my workplace.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my power, physical
force and position of power and superiority to abuse beings that are
vulnerable, innocent and in an inferior and weaker position than me.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse beings that are
vulnerable, innocent and in an inferior and weaker position than me because they
are forced to take it, and so I can see the suffering play out that I am experiencing
within myself, because I have become so disempowered within myself to be able
to cope with the position I have been placed within, except to take it out on others.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bigger and more
powerful when I abuse another, because I have not seen, realized or understood how
small, insignificant and disempowered I actually feel within myself, and due to
that lack of self-awareness, I try and attempt to make myself feel better within
and through physically playing out acts in which I am apparently proving my
power and superiority, without seeing, realizing and understanding that I am
actually, within myself, confirming the powerlessness and inferiority I feel.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create victims in my
life, because I have victimized myself within myself due to my life, the
circumstances I was born into, and the systems of abuse within which I exist.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within my self-victimization
and disempowerment, continue, create and perpetuate the systems of abuse that
we are all to varying degrees subject to.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to watch abuse take
place around me with a blind eye instead of taking a stand within myself or
without, because I fear physical harm or losing my financial security as my
paycheck.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed animal abuse at my work place because
I fear losing my financial support and thus the financial security of myself
and my family
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that just because working in an abusive facility is my
only viable option to create a life for myself my family, that I am
disempowered within myself and can only turn a blind eye and internalize my
reactions, instead of taking a stand and finding some way, somehow to do
something about it within my means, even if it is something small.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to internalize my
reactions from my abusive workplace, and supress the resentment, the anger, the
hatred, the guilt, the sorrow, the pain and the remorse, and carry it around
with me where it then comes out in unexpected, uncontrolled moments towards myself
or others in my world and environment, my husband/wife, my children, my family,
my coworkers or others in my world.
The
Consumer
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remain ignorant to
the realities of the food industry.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume the flesh of
life without absolute gratitude, appreciation, respect, honour and love, but
instead eat it within and as anger, fear of weight gain, ignorance,
distractedness and robotic detachment.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that if I stop eating meat I will make a difference in
the lives of the animals that continue to suffer, without addressing the entire
system of inequality that causes the industry to exist and be supported in the
first place.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that eating meat is evil, and that I am not evil because
I do not eat meat, when in fact meat can be raised and consumed in a way that
honours life, and given that some require to eat meat due to body
make-up/genetics/finances.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that vegetarianism/veganism is the answer, when in fact
an entire network of systems of abuse must be addressed, which is not addressed when we
only look to the one dimension of stopping eating meat.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that veganism/vegetarianism does not abuse life, when in
fact the chemicals and bee-keeping styles required to produce much more than enough for all,
end up abusing other lifeforms as we over-produce food for profit and gain, and that not everyone can support a buy-local,
organic diet due to the systems of inequality that exist today.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that I am doing something to make a difference by
stopping eating meat, when the corruption that exists everywhere also exist in
the large organic and humane-foods industries, because it is existent in human
nature, which includes my nature.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop eating meat,
instead of looking within myself at Who I Am and how I approach issues and
global problems that must be addressed holistically, which includes equal
attention to my own human nature and what I create in my daily participation in
my world and reality.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create friction,
division, spite, blame, hatred and resentment by pushing and promoting my view,
my opinion and my way of solving the problem, instead of seeing, realizing and
understanding the characteristics of human nature that I am playing out in my
life that actually contributes to the perpetuation of this system that creates
suffering in the first place.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and judge
factory farmed meat as disgusting, when in fact it is not about the animal or
the meat, but what the human has done to the animal and meat, wherein the meat
is the direct product of that human intervention.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy the cheaper,
factory farmed meat when I can in fact afford to support local, humanely raised
meat, not to clear my conscience, but to, in awareness, support one part of the
solution with eyes wide open to the entire issue, which is existence-wide in
terms of our collective human nature of abuse, acceptance and allowance, and
seeing my self-responsibility in my own life to explore my own human nature to
see where and how I am contributing in my life, my reality, my private moments to
myself, within myself, and my interaction with others in my world, to the
systems we as humanity have collectively created.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to save money out
of fear of lack and survival, and in so doing, turning a blind eye to the
products I buy, where they come from and why.
For
All:
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed animal abuse to exist.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn a blind eye to
animal abuse all the industries of animal consumption and utilization.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive
that I am somehow not responsible for the existence of animal abuse.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow
abuse due to my own fear of survival.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim I am too ignorant,
too small, too insignificant, too powerless to be able to take responsibility for
my contribution to the existence of animal abuse.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my
self-interest, desire for money, fear of survival and fear of loss above the
principle of honouring all life.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive
that animals are less important, less significant, inferior, less aware or less
alive, when in fact my existence depends upon the existence of animals.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe
that I am more manly, more tough, superior, more macho, stronger, more powerful
and better-than if I consume lots of meat, turning meat or food consumption
into ego instead of simply nourishing my body, giving my physical flesh and organs
what they need, and doing so in humility and gratitude and consideration of
what was sacrificed so that I can live another day.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and
understand that so long as there are poor people, people in need of money as
jobs to survive and a heavy profit-motive – that there will be cheap meat in the form of mass-produced
factory farms.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and
understand that humanity must first support all humans before/as we stop many
of the industries we currently require to survive due to a system of survival where
life is not free, but paid for.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear supporting
others in case others abuse this system of support, without seeing, realizing
and understanding that until we sort out our human nature, all systems will be
abused, but is it worth denying All? Denying those that would make the best of
the support, just to apparently ‘punish’ the abusers, when in fact in doing so we
are punishing everyone, even the wealthy that also live in fear of ever ending
up like those whose backs and corpses we walk upon.
