Look Inside to Self for Guidance

“Look inside to Self for guidance” follows “be silent always – take a breath before you speak”.  Please read the following blogs for context:

Be Silent Always (When is Silence Real?) 

Be Silent Always (2)

 Take a Breath Before You Speak 

Take a Breath Before You Speak (2) 

 

When you look inside to SELF for guidance, which ‘Self’ are you looking to? The self-interested self, or the Self that stands within responsibility, that stands within principle, within integrity, within respect, the one that stands as what is Best for All?

Can you stand as the Tree of Life that gives unconditionally, expecting nothing in return?

Can you stand as responsibility, taking SELF-responsibility and taking responsibility for your environment as an extension of yourself?  Responsibility leaves no time for self-interest.

Can you give as you would like to receive, without first receiving?

It is vitally important to first learn how to be silent always – because as soon as your mind becomes busy, you are already in self-interest. Within this, you cannot trust yourSELF to guide you, because you are living as a ‘self’ that is out for its own gain. This means that anything that comes from this self will be a manipulation, seeking profits and avoiding losses. Seeking positive experience and avoiding negative experience. Within this, self disregards everything in one’s reality as ‘self’ becomes the center of the universe, not seeing and realizing the consequence one is creating, or, seeing it and not really caring, being ‘ok’ with the consequence, so long as it is happening to another (not remembering we are One, and we are Equal, so creating consequence in the life of another is at the same time creating your own consequence, either directly and immediately, or indirectly and/or over time).

When you take a breath before you speak, you have a moment to clear yourself, to be self-honest, to see through your own manipulation and consider the Whole. You have a moment to bring in CARE, CONSIDERATION, RESPECT and REGARD for not only yourself, but for everyone your words might affect. You have this timeless moment to look to Self for Guidance. Your best Self. You Self that Stands as what is Best for All.

In this, there is at first an inner battle that takes place, as we have been taught through the education system, the money system and social systems to look out for ourselves, ensure our own survival at the sake of others, to be the one that climbs the ladder of success to provide for self and one’s own. There is very little consideration for ‘the other’, ‘them’, they are seen as the competition, and their diminishment is your gain. See how we live this out in our own minds in the small ways in our lives, how we do not see my success as your success, your happiness as my happiness. We have very much separated ourselves into ‘us’ vs ‘them’, ‘me’ vs ‘you’. This is so well-known that it is cliché, but have we ever really taken a look at how in actually live the correction?

Within this battle of the selves, when looking inside to one’s Best Self for guidance, what I have found is that in the beginning, when choosing the path of Best for All there is an immense fear. This fear is an indicator that one is in fact functioning according to principles, possibly for the first time. This is functioning without feeling, emoting or experiencing. The fear comes like a firewall as in one’s words and actions one is deliberately giving up self-interest, which has been linked to survival. One is deliberately NOT feeding one’s ego, which has been linked to survival. One is deliberately giving up ‘experience’ as personal wants and desires (see this blog for context: You Cannot Both Experience Life and Live Life), which has been linked to living and being alive.

However, everything that is being given up is based in survival and experience, instead of in Life, Living and Real Fulfillment in the physical, which is a slow, breath-by-breath creational process rooted in actual action taken over time. We have been living in fear and survival for so long now, that anything that does not align with this feels like it is going against our best interest, our living and our survival – and the feeling is strong, as it is in our programming, in our neuro-pathways, it is in our DNA – and changing this involves a deep and profound change that will challenge you on these levels of existence that have gone untouched for far too long. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use self-interest as my guide in what I do, how I think and what I say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that feelings and emotions must guide me in order to ensure my survival and my enjoyment in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue gain as my guide, where my thoughts, words and deeds are being guided by my wants and desires that benefit only me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link feelings and emotions to survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link ego to survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link experience to living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I NEED to experience something in order to live, to feel alive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have trusted a self I had built and created in self-interest, in unawareness, without consideration, honour, respect and regard for others, for the Whole, for the bigger picture and the long term.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn a blind eye to the direct link between living from a starting point of self-interest and the consequence I have seen in my life, not linking the two, but instead trusting in hope for some change or solution to present itself, instead of BEING the solution and the change for and as myself and so others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize the importance of a clear starting point within and without, clearing the inner and the outer as Who I Am within myself and Who I Am in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look to others for guidance, trusting them, and copying without discernment which means I have not taken complete self-responsibility, which can then lead to blame.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to use others as examples only, where I take the best of them and then look inside myself for how I can live those words as me, in my way within and as my expression, where only I can be my guide in the decisions and choices I make, the words I choose to speak and the actions I take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear looking inside Self for guidance due to the self-responsibility this entails, where my mistakes and fuckups are my own, the consequences I may create are my own, where there is no backdoor of blame, where actual learning must be applied, lived and patterned into the deepest levels of myself, which is a process of patience, repetition, trust and time.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to guide myself towards actions that honour what is Best for All, but have instead fallen to fear and not wanting to give up my self-interest, looking for short-term gains as experience and not looking at the long-term creational process that involves the betterment of everyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust fear over Life.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that trusting Life is an active and not a passive process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that trusting Life involves letting go of the old while birthing the new, and that this process can be painful from both angles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want proof as ‘receiving’ before I give, believing within this that my giving is of no consequence, is unappreciated, is empty, instead of seeing and realizing the self-fulfillment I create when I give as an expression of myself, where the giving is at the same time receiving as I give to others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear pain both physical and emotional, to fear fear, and to fear death, instead of seeing and realizing that at this point these things are an inevitability to be faced, that they can be faced as they are not greater than Who I am as my expression, as Life, and so I decide to face them as a creational process or a destructive and diminishing process.

I commit myself to let go of the self as self-interest as fear, feelings, emotions and personal gain as my guide.

I commit myself to look inside mySELF for guidance, to the Self that stands, that knows, that sees what is Best for All and what is not.

 

 

 

 

Take a Breath Before You Speak (2)

 

continued from Take a Breath Before You Speak

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to give myself a moment, to take a breath before I speak in order to consider if my words are Best For All or only best for self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak words that are tainted and contaminated by self-interest instead of taking a moment to consider what is Best For All and using that moment to drop my self-interest, face myself and speak from a starting point of the principles I have committed myself to in thought, word and deed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed backchat, internal conversation and voices in the head to come through and contaminate my words, so that the words I speak from this starting point cannot be trusted by myself, by others or by Life.

I forgive myself that I have NOT shut down my backchat, internal conversations and voices in the head in one moment, but instead accept and allow them to play out as if they are relevant and important or necessary to ‘figure things out’, when in fact I have seen, realized and understood that the only conclusion they ever come to is personal gain or avoidance of pain and discomfort. Within this:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak words that seek gain or avoid pain and discomfort at the sake of what’s Best For All, within seeing and understanding that the gain and the pain is only of the ego in self-interest, instead of believing in myself, trusting myself that I am able and capable of standing for Life, for All and not just ‘me’ and ‘how I feel’ without considering the impact and outflows on others in my life and the greater whole.

I forgive myself that I have not stopped backchat, internal conversations and self-talk.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to just be HERE, in the physical, with every moment being a new moment, where I speak and move and act based on what is Here in the moment.

Take a Breath before you speak…

Take a breath before you speak…

Take a breath before you speak.

I commit myself to take a breath before I speak.

I commit myself to slow down in my speaking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not speak due to fear of speaking tainted words, wherein I accept and allow fear to be my directive principle instead of Self being the directive principle in which I would instead take a breath, assess my words and decide from there whether or not it is relevant for me to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that ‘not speaking’ is in any way a solution, instead of seeing and realizing that it is in fact a polarity and spiteful to myself as simply ‘doing the opposite of what I have been doing’ as if some form of punishment will rectify having ever spoken tainted words that created consequence in my life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live and develop discernment, trusting that I can discern between What is Best For All and only what is best for me.

I commit myself to push through the resistances of speaking what is best for all as I know when I speak these words I am committing myself to the words I speak out loud for others to hear wherein there is an accountability in place, a cross-reference where I close my back doors and stick to my commitment.

I commit myself to honour what is Best for All in the words I speak, wherein I am left fulfilled, trustworthy, and with integrity, with respect for myself, others and Life.

 

 

Waiting for the World to Change: Pushed by Consequence or Driven Towards a Solution?

Kim and Leila working with Earth Haven

Have you ever noticed how it’s only when disaster strikes in your life that you see more clearly what needs to be done, and maybe then you get up and move yourself? When your job is threatened, only then will you do your best at work, motivated by the stress and fear that comes with losing your income. Or only when someone in your life is experiencing hardships do you then take that position of support, ‘stepping up to the plate’, showing yourself what you are actually capable of doing ALL THE TIME, even when things are ‘good’ and life is ‘comfortable’ with nothing pushing you or stimulating you to move.

For those of us that have our survival met, it is too easy to remain idle. We remain idle and unmoved, not only to the problems and issues the world is facing, but to standing up within ourselves and realizing our own best potential.

It is as if it takes a disaster to cut through the emotional haze, where reality is suddenly seen clearly, and it becomes even more clear what you need to do and how to do it, even if it involves figuring it out as you go. It is only when calamity strikes that we are willing to step up, put ourselves aside and consider the greater whole, doing what’s Best for All and not just what’s best for me.

On a personal level, movement usually involves being pushed by stress, fear and insecurity, hitting a rock-bottom, or rock-bottoming as a way of life to make personal changes. This way of living is exceptionally self-compromising, it limits and diminishes Self physically and mentally, it does not nurture and support creativity, ingenuity, creation, or potential.

This pattern that exists collectively and individually indicates a very consequential way of living, because what is the statement we are making to ourselves and to Life within our actions? We are telling ourselves and Life that we must experience MORE consequence before we move our assess. We are essentially asking for disaster, calamity and wake up calls before we move ourselves to make a change. We are making the statement to ourselves, to those in our lives, to our fellow man and to Life that we accept and allow ‘the way things are’, within ourselves and this world. That we are ok with this.

On a global level, we can see the collective consequence of this pattern that plays out on an individual level, privately in secret moments, by looking at the billions of people struggling to survive. Because we are doing it in our own lives, on the global level we are also collectively screaming for more consequence before we can SEE and FEEL ‘the others’. We are unable or unwilling to move until we feel the pain ourselves. We are unwilling or unable to place ourselves in the shoes of another, cutting through our own emotional haze to see the dire reality others are living, because in our own lives we are unwilling to do it for ourselves. We are directly asking for the global consequence to become so big that it penetrates our comfort – or our ability to pay for the comfort and security we have.

This is reactive programming, where, like a robot, we wait for external stimulus before we act. We STILL require the physical input from our environment to push us to stand up and change - instead of living as creative beings that ACT, that REALIZE their best potential without any stimulus, but rather based on seeing, realizing and understanding Self, Reality and what must be done.

Earth Haven is an example of a group of people that are physically ACTING and MOVING despite consequence not being directly at our doorstep. We are developing practical, actionable solutions and developing ourselves within this process, where the standing, the changing, and the drive moves collaboratively from the inner to the outer – the personal to the global. Whether you are supporting from afar or directly involved, this group is not waiting - not only to become our Best Potentials within ourselves in our own lives, but to create a space, a haven of safety for others to come to as the world becomes more insecure.  To step up to the plate for others that will need it in time to come.

It is in this way that Earth Haven is sending another, different message to Life, saying “We are ready to change. We realize we as humanity have to change. We recognize the fact that we are creative beings with the ability to support one another, and work towards creating a Better World for All”.  We are asking Life for something else: we are asking for people, for standing, for resources, for understanding, for self-realization, for drive.

In this, we are not submitting to being programmed organic robots that function based on stimulus to act, accepting and allowing the world to exist the way it does currently. Our drive comes from within, from realizing we are a PART of this reality, and within this, we are empowered to move, to create, to make things better for ourselves and others, instead of waiting for a slow decline or unexpected calamity. Whether you are physically working with Earth Haven, or supporting from afar, you are standing with as “two or more in my name” in impulsing, living and thus birthing this message into reality and to Life.

Earth Haven has been moving for years now, based on understanding and not waiting for that point of too-lateness.  This understanding-based movement (creative vs reactive, or self-driven movement) has involved developing self-sustainability: creating communities that do not solely rely on the failing system we now see. It also involves developing financial/economic solutions that create REAL stability for human beings: basing all funding upon the principles of an Equal Money System (EMS), similar to a Universal Basic Income (UBI) for those not familiar with the EMS proposal.

Within this, we cannot do it alone. We realize the interconnectedness and thus inter-dependence that we exist within. This current reality of ‘every man for himself’ is only an illusion, it does not exist. We need each other. No one person can make the big enough change that is required. Earth Haven’s existence is only possible because of those that support, because they also see and understand reality and how it functions. They understand this needs to be a group initiative, and that the group needs to work together, each one having their role, or even better – creating their role to make this message and reality possible.

Thank you, Earth Haven supporters, volunteers and creators, for not waiting for the world to end before we drive ourselves to make a change. Thank you for your part in breaking down the programming of input/output that keeps every one locked in to things the way they are. Thank you for finding it within yourself to put yourself aside for a moment, to see the bigger picture… and then realizing that you are included in this picture. Realizing also that anything of value takes TIME to be created. Patience is required as we work at the pace of the physical. Doing things right, properly, leaving no stone unturned and no loose ends when it comes to considering what is Best for All, step by step, testing, figuring it out as we go.

We work on a system of real-time feedback, physical reality feedback, assessing over time what works and what doesn’t. This movement is organic, it cannot be predicted, and it is always unexpected. This is because it is REAL. It is not pre-programmed, it is not predictable – this now also challenging the word ‘trust’, and what does it mean to TRUST another, or a group in their process?  Because in supporting, one is also making a statement of trust.

Earth Haven is busy birthing into reality individual and group EMPOWERMENT, CREATIVE ABILITY, and TRUST. Will you support us, or continue to support us, and be a part of this?

This is a post from my Mental Health Tier at www.patteon.com/earthhaven, exploring and exposing addiction patterns and applying it to the Whole. Herein also showing how Earth haven stands as an example as a solution when applied on both an individual and collective level.

 

Take a Breath Before You Speak

 

“Take a breath before you speak” follows the phrase “Be silent always” within the below quote by Bernard Poolman. What I have noticed is that the effectiveness with which you are able to quiet your mind determines what you must consider in the breath you take before you speak. 

 (continued from Be Silent Always)

Thoughts, feelings and emotions cannot be trusted, yet this is what busies our minds. If something makes you feel good energetically – you can now not be trusted by Life. If something makes you feel bad energetically, you cannot be trusted by Life. If you think thoughts secretly, you cannot be trusted by Life. It is all based in self-interest - considering self only - self’s hidden fears and desires, self’s highs and lows. Self’s dopamine and serotonin levels. If thoughts, feelings and emotions are accepted and allowed to manifest and grow within people, what you see is the murders, the rape, the malice, the contempt, the pain and suffering whether physical or emotional being deliberately inflicted upon one human being by another. The fact that billions of innocent people are starving is an outflow of self-interest, and the fact that nobody actually cares is an outflow of self-interest. A child starving is the result of pure evil on a collective level, not one person is exempt.   

 So, whether your starting point feels good or feels bad, the outcome is always the same – evil, harmful, untrustworthy. Love turns to hate, desire turns to possession, attraction turns to rape. It’s only a matter of how far you chose to take it. But even in the most minutest doses, we are all collectively impulsing evil through self-interest, through valuing what we create in our minds secretly, through even accepting and allowing the seed to exist within us. How can you condemn rape if you lust? How can you condemn possession if you also desire? Anything polarized into ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ by self-interest that you participate with in your mind is a seed of evil, and is why the world and humanity exist as they do today. It is just too easy to deny and become offended by. We don’t want to see or admit it, but common-sense dictates.

In the breath you take before you speak, you have a quantum moment to clear yourself, to not speak evil, to not impulse evil into this reality through fear, spite, hate, lust, desire, or any other feeling, emotion or secret thoughts. If your mind was busy before you speak, then the slate you have to clear exist only between your two ears. You cannot be trusted to direct anything beyond that. Self First. It is a moment that you give yourself to take absolute self-responsibility for yourself, your words and their outflows. Only when your mind is silent always can you be trusted to direct the greater reality. In between these two points is the learning process which will inevitably create consequence through mistakes, failures, trial and error. Learn from consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak within and as emotion, emotional accumulation or emotional reaction, when I know that the words I speak from this starting point is like spitting venom into my reality and the people within it. Nothing constructive comes from me and from my words when spoken from an emotional starting point.

I forgive myself for participating within and as emotions when I know where they lead every time, when I know there is deception within my words, that there is ulterior motive, and within this, that my words cannot be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from a starting point of fear, where instead of addressing and facing the fear head on, I speak words of indirect manipulation, trying to manipulate reality into such a way where I do not have to face my fears, making the statement to myself that I cannot stand in the face of my fears, and bringing others into my game of avoidance without considering the effect this has on them, on the greater whole, and what I am impulsing into all of existence.

I forgive myself for participating in my fears, feeding them with thoughts, anticipations, imaginary worst-case scenario play-outs and who I will be within it all, bringing out my worst in my mind when I know I can be better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from a starting point of blame or abdication of self-responsibility, thus making the statement to myself that I am not responsible for me, I cannot take responsibility for myself, and placing it upon others and them changing so that I can remain in my comfort zone and not have to face what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a result of building myself within and as emotion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from a starting point of feelings, feeling accumulation, or feeling reaction, where I feel good about something and so do not want to lose it, do not want to lose the positive energy or energy high, and so will manipulate my reality to keep me feeling this way, wherein when something or someone changes and I lose or fear to lose my positive state, I blame that someone or something, becoming nasty and spiteful, thus playing out the polarity of the positive feeling energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from a positive energy high, not grounding my words in reality, not assessing myself and what it is I am pushing, which is only seeking to keep and maintain my positive energy high.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from a starting point of desire, desiring something outside of myself to fulfill me, wherein my words cannot be trusted because they are contaminated with desire and secretly trying to fulfill secret desires that I hold due to an experience of lack, as if something outside of myself could fulfill this lack that I myself created through denying my self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak within and as positive energy.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to take a breath before I speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak so quickly that I do not give myself a moment to take self-responsibility for my words and Who I Am within them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that there is ‘too much to work through’ in one moment, not seeing and realizing that I can work in quantum time with my awareness through practicing self-honesty and seeing myself for real, for Who I Really Am and what it is I am busy doing, so that in that quantum moment I can make a correction and a change and be a better version of myself as the words I choose to speak.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to clear my slate before I speak, ensuring that the words I speak can be trusted by Life and by the people in my life, my world and my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘forget’ to take a breath before I speak, as if who I choose to be in every moment is unimportant, as if falling into automated autopilot programming is not a big deal and can be applied haphazardly here and there when I feel like it, instead of seeing and realizing that it is literally everything, from the very small to the existential – this is what creates Self and the reality we live in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a rush/rushedness when I speak, getting the answer out as fast as possible to avoid having to see myself for real, experience myself for real, take self-responsibility for real, and instead spit my words out sloppily, contaminated, full of energetic charges for other people, my environment and reality to deal with, which always actually ends up coming back to me in some shape or form as my own consequence that I created in unawareness and will now have to walk until I get it, until I decide to finally change.

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to try to ‘see more’, to see beyond myself, without first fully mastering myself, quieting myself, where the try and attempt to ‘see more’ is actually just a distraction from myself and having to see myself, correct myself and put in the effort, dedication and commitment to change myself for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I cannot clearly check my words in one breath before I speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress what I see and feel within myself, blinding myself from being able to clear my words before I speak.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to clear my words before I speak.