Day 183- Picking My Skin to Escape My Reality

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pick my skin.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pick my skin as a mechanism to avoid being here with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create and manifest discomfort/uneasiness/crawling sensation/irritability when and as I am present within myself or when I stop myself from picking or scratching at my skin.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use skin-picking/scratching as a way to avoid facing myself in the moment, in presences and awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, believe or perceive that I can’t face myself and the way I feel inside head on, because it feels too uncomfortable, unpleasant, overwhelming and frightening.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, believe and perceive that the world around me is too overwhelming, chaotic  and out of control for me to exist within, and within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want, to need, and to desire to have absolute control over my environment within the belief that it would change how I experience myself if I did.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have created an ultimatum, wherein I try to control everything in my Life and world, and when that fails, I withdraw completely into the disorder as an absolute disconnecting and escape.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, believe and perceive that having absolute control over my environment is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that all other human beings have it together and have complete control over their environments except me, and that there is some specific formula that I am missing that I could somehow find to ‘make it right’ and ‘be ok’ like everybody else seems to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to obsessively try to perfect everything and find every little flaw in a try and an attempt to find that ‘thing I am missing’ that would make it all right and all ‘okay’.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to obsess over myself and my physical body within an attempt to find every little flaw within the idea, perception and belief that if I didn’t have a certain blemish or bump or imperfection, I would be perfect and then things would be/feel ok, and I would be ok.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that the way I feel within myself is a direct result of how I look or what is going on in my life and my world, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that it has nothing to do with my physical body or events and play-outs in my life. It has everything to do with the way I feel about these things, or the feeling and emotional energetic relationships I develop to and towards them.

Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the one that actually determines and creates those relationships; therefore, I am the one that is responsible for them and empowered to change them.

Continued from:

Day 168- OCD: Thoughts that Create my Own Prison

Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly

Day 170- CSP: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 2) 

Day 171-CSP: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 3)

Day 172: CSP The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 4)  
Day 173- OCD: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 5) 

 Day 174- The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 6) 

Day 175- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 7)

To be continued…

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Day 175- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 7)

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This blog is continued from:

Day 168- OCD: Thoughts that Create my Own Prison

Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly

Day 170- CSP: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 2) 

Day 171-CSP: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 3)

Day 172: CSP The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 4)  
 Day 174- The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 6) 
Day 173- OCD: The Fear of Being Ugly (pt 5)

For context, I would suggest reading these blogs first.

Click here for a description of CSP. 

Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself, nor anything or anyone else, and to change these to patterns of self-support that can be lived out daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see that I am going into self-judgment based on how others are treating me, (either positive or negative- both being the same, as in two sides of the same coin- the point being that I am being influenced by my environment/others in any way whatsoever), I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to SELF-expression, by reminding myself that I can laugh at myself, and not take my self-image so seriously that I would be influenced by another’s reaction to it. I am ‘stuck’ with me no matter how others view me, react to me, or respond to me. I am responsible to make the determining calls for Who and How I am, and no one else is able to do that for me. I Take Myself Back from the direction of others by Grounding Myself within/as the Reality Of Myself, which  I accept, with Full Knowing of the process I am walking and all that which I still need to do, which is a lot, and if I am called out on or made aware of a point I have not yet dealt with, then it is merely a point that requires attention, presenting itself into my awareness. I direct myself to express myself as ME, as Who I Am at the moment, for the moment, and in this, I get to know myself, and develop self-intimacy.

I commit myself to clear my starting point before, during, within and as interactions with others.

I commit myself to either stand up, or to humble myself without compromise, when and as I see that I am getting a positive or negative charge out of an interaction.

When and as I see that I am defining or judging myself as ‘ugly’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by reminding myself that the picture is not what is important- but is the result of what kind of care I am giving myself. I direct myself to look at myself in self-acceptance, wherein, when and as I look, nothing moves within me.

When and as I see that I am defining and judging myself as ‘pretty’, ‘sexy’, or ‘beautiful’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty within the realization that basing my self-acceptance on my picture presentation is equal and one to basing my self-acceptance within energetic relationships which have no substance or stability- which will thus then enslave me to the constant ups and downs of energy instead of the constancy, consistency, and stability that I am able to develop by basing my starting point on Who I Am as substance, and what my outflows are as physical actions and words. This I am able to decide in awareness and develop with intention.

I commit myself to clearing my self-relationship with my picture presentation to one where Who I Am and how I look are one and equal to that which I create in self-awareness, which is value, worth, self-care, self-honouring, self-acceptance, self-will, self-direction, assertiveness, steadfastness, and self-commitment to be and become equal to and one with all that is Here.

I commit myself to stop the reactions and judgments that come up within me as thoughts/ideas/feeling/emotions/perceptions/beliefs and internal conversation when and as I look at or see myself and my picture presentation.

To script yourself back into alignment with and as Life, learn these self-supportive writing tools, visit: DIP LITE- a free course where you will learn to create a platform of self-support to be able to face yourself in forgiveness and acceptance, and recreate yourself through your own self-realization, in a way that honours and supports yourself to Live a Life that benefits yourself and others.