The point I am looking at is self-worth, specifically, not
feeling important enough or good enough for another, but rather, defining my
self-worth into and as another instead of standing within my self-worth. Specifying
more- I saw that I give my power away to another by calling it ‘trust’ in
another, when really it is/was abdication of my self-responsibility to stand
within my self-worth, by making it the job of another. I also want to touch on
taking the actions of another personally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
experience myself as ‘not important enough’ for another, in a relationship,
wherein I feel I don’t have enough to offer as who I am, but need to ‘do more’
and ‘be more’ in order to have the other consider me as worthy of being with/spending
time with.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think,
believe and/or perceive that I don’t have ‘enough to offer’ in a relationship
with another.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe/perceive that I need to ‘do more’ in order to compensate for the
self-created belief that ‘I am not enough’ as who I am in a relationship.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe/perceive that I need to ‘be more’ in a relationship, as a reaction
to the self-created perception/belief that I am not enough for another to be with
or spend time with.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look to
another to consider me ‘worthy’ by judging their actions and words towards me
wherein I look for indicators of my worthiness, instead of standing within my
worth by not accepting or allowing the thoughts, ideas, perceptions and beliefs
about me not being enough, doing enough or being worthy enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look
for, seek and search out indicators or signe of my worthiness within the
actions and words of another, instead of accepting myself as worthy within
self-responsibility as a statement of Who I Am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create
an entire perception, definition and belief of myself as unworthy through, over
the years and through relationships, abdicating my self-worth to others,
wherein I would never find it because it can only ever come from me, so instead
of standing within my self-worth, I constantly looked for it within my
relationships, and in never finding it, confirmed to myself that it is/was
simply ‘not there,’ instead of realizing that I am self-worth, I am worthy of
me, and I am enough- and I accept that as Who I Am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create
the perception, belief and definition of myself as not important enough and not
good enough, by defining my importance outside of myself, in relationships,
wherein I would not nor will ever find it because it is simply not there, it is
and has always been right Here, within myself as a human being, equal to and
one with all other humans beings as who I am, as who we all are.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel
unimportant, and to confirm that feeling through looking for my self-definition
within relationships.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel
that I’m not good enough, and to confirm it over and over again by defining
myself within relationships.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to
stand within self-worth.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself abdicate
my self-worth to another, and then to deceive myself by calling it trust, as I
have trusted another with my self-worth, which is essentially giving my power
away to another, and giving them the responsibility to not hurt me and ‘make me
worthy’, which is just the experience of worthiness, and not actual living
worth, which only I can gift to me and live for myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my
power away to another by defining myself within and as them/the relationship.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing another to hurt
me because I have defined myself within and as them, and within and as my
relationship with them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe/perceive that another can hurt me/wrong me or intentionally cause
me emotional pain, instead of realizing that the other is only deceiving
themselves, which has nothing to do with me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take
the actions of another personally, as if it is all about me, instead of
considering that each is in their own process, and I can only be responsible for
me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate
within and as emotional pain and jealousy, instead of standing up as Who I am,
thus gifting myself back to me within self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe that my relationship is all about me, instead of considering my
partner equally, and standing with him/as him as an equal being who supports
myself, and as a result, supports him.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe
that I can be victimized or abused emotionally, instead of realizing that I can
only victimize and abuse myself within and through separation, by placing my
self-definition outside of me.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to
take responsibility for my emotional energetic experiences by not participating
within and as them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to
be the victim and the abused as blame, wherein I blame another for apparently
causing me to feel a certain way, instead of looking within myself in
self-honesty, to see the starting point of my reaction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
being hurt by another.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
not being important enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
not being good enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my
partner leaving me.
I see, realize and understand that I fear not being important
enough, not being good enough, and being hurt, because these things exist
within me already, wherein I have already defined myself as not good enough and
not important enough, and I know that, thus the fear exists that I will have to
face that, which I did/do because of the actions of another, thus creating the
experience of hurt, which I can bring back to myself and see that I have hurt
myself by defining myself as unworthy, unimportant, and not good enough- when,
in fact, obviously I am.
When and as I see myself participating in the voice in my
head that tells me I’m not good enough, not important enough and unworthy, I
STOP, and I BREATHE. I bring myself back to awareness within the realization
that I am responsible for me- not another, and not my relationship, but ME, and
I remind myself that I accept me, I allow myself to stand within self-worth, I
am the most important being as I am all I have in this life, and…
I commit myself to myself and my process of self, wherein I
commit me to gifting me back to myself in my entirety.
I commit myself to taking myself back from relationships, and
creating a self-relationship of self-support and self-equality.
I commit myself to STOP defining myself within relationships
outside of myself.
I commit myself to stand within self-worth, no matter what
happens within my relationship.
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