This is a continuation of Day 87- Going Down the Rabbits Holeor Still Looking at the Mirror?
“The main realizations I had within
and through writing these statements is that I have the tendency to project and
imagine ‘big things’ and ‘big plans’ for myself, in the mind where the entire
play out can be played out in seconds, wherein there is an instant
gratification and feelings of accomplishment experienced within me. However,
the ‘downfall’ and consequential outflow of this are that I become discouraged
and defeated when I go to bring those plans into action in the real world, the
physical world outside of my mind, the reality we all share, otherwise known as
Here. These feelings lead to ‘stagnation’ and ‘stuckness’ within which I am not
as effective within what I do, because in a way, I feel as though I have
already failed. This then leads to the experience of being overwhelmed with the
amount of actual steps it will take to accomplish that which I want to accomplish,
and then I experience anxiety as a ‘falling behind’ because in my mind, I am already
way ahead of myself.
It takes time, dedication, commitment and patience to get
things done in the physical reality, and these are the things I am mapping
myself out to become. I see, realize and understand that I can only work from
Here, and that there is a difference between making a plan or long term goals,
and fantasizing about what it will be like ‘then’, when everything is done and
where, in my mind, everything was easy and successful.”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
try/attempt to escape and avoid Here by trying to do everything and get it all
done so that I can be ‘there,’ in the future where things are done and everything
is in order, and where I’ve projected that I will experience myself differently
‘then’.
I commit myself to stop projecting about who and how I will
be later, and which situation I will be in later, instead of focusing on now
and my actions and behaviours now that will create me as who and how I want to
be, by being it now.
I commit myself to do what needs to be done daily, instead of
existing within and as the belief that one day, it will all be done. I see and
realize that my organs function in every moment until I die, and that I too
apply myself as Who I Am in every moment till my time is up.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to take one thing at a time, and bring it Here, and focus on it with all my
presence and awareness, and direct the one thing I have chosen to focus on to
the best of my ability, while always making sure I am self-honest about what
exactly my ability is.
I commit myself to take one thing at a time, to bring it Here
and focus on it with all my presence and awareness, and to direct it to the
best of my ability, always remembering to question my ability, to push the limits
of my ability to see exactly what it is I am capable of.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create a character that wants/needs/desires ‘forward motion’ as a polarity with
myself as lazy, motionless, stagnant and unmotivated.
I commit myself to work on finding balance in my Life, with
some time dedicated to rest, relaxation and enjoyment, but not too much, and
some time dedicated to responsibilities, but not too much.
I commit myself to practice and perfect self-care, throughand as developing self-esteem and self-worth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want/need/desire to participate within and as the ‘forward motion’ character
because I have defined it as ‘successful’, within the belief that that is how
successful people operate, and if I were just like that, I would be successful
too.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want/desire success instead of focusing on actually being successful in my
practical application of myself in my life and world.
I commit myself to allow myself to be successful, to embrace
and become one with success instead of seeing/perceiving it as something ‘out
there’ that happens to other people who have the answers that I think/believe I
will never find.
I commit myself to be and become a success within myself,
within self-mastery of myself in my entirety, so that what I think is what I
do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want/need/desire to participate within and as the ‘forward motion’ character
because I admire others that this character is trying to emulate as an
experience, and so I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire others to admire me when I am
‘moving forward’ and ‘getting things done,’ so that I may ‘have’ the
experience, instead of realizing that an ‘experience’ is nothing but an
energetic momentary rush within me, while the actual creating myself successfully
just ‘is ,’ as it simply becomes Who I Am.
I commit myself to base my actions in self-honesty and doing
what’s best for myself as all as one as equal in actuality, instead of playing
around with images, perceptions and judgment as who I am as an experience of
myself. I realize and understand that it is sometimes necessary to ‘go into
character’ to present myself in a certain way at, for example, a job, wherein
there are certain social and company rules that must be abided by. I commit
myself to understand the social and company rules In my workplace, to
understand who I am in relation to them, and to abide by them without
compromising or influencing myself as Who I Am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
base success on an internal experience, instead of the actual measurable
outcome of my actions.
I commit myself to stop chasing ideas, perceptions and
beliefs, and to instead ground myself in reality Here, and take actual actions
towards that which I have set as my goals.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear being unsuccessful, lazy, unmotivated and stagnant.
I commit myself to stop fearing that which I have complete
ability to control and direct, by slowly but surely teaching myself how to
control and direct it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
manifest for myself that which I fear, specifically here where I overwhelm
myself where I reach points where I feel ‘stuck’ and unable to move myself to
simple tasks.
I commit myself to stop the patterns of self-defeat which
create many unnecessary consequences, by giving myself back my power in order
to move and direct me out of the habits and patterns I have come to depend on
to keep me in line, to prioritize my self-interest and to stay lazy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create unnecessary mountains for me to climb, because of and due to not
remaining Here, in breath, and instead going into my mind, creatingresistances, backchat, beliefs and thoughts and internal experiences such as
stress and anxiety about small things that could easily be done.
I commit myself to live
equal and one to that which I create, because I am equal to and one with
it In Fact. Thus,
I commit myself to change my creations of and as me, and to
knock down the mountains of the mind by simply taking it step by step, bringing
it Here, equal to me, so that I can manage it as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that I need to experience events all the time to
indicate that I am moving forward, instead of moving me Here to pave the way
for myself y taking one step at a time and doing it well.
I commit myself to stop abdicating my self-responsibility to
things and events outside of me, and to take complete self-responsibility for
myself in every moment by applying myself within, through and between events in
my life, no matter what the event is.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think about and conjure up big plans for myself, without considering the time,patience and actual work it will require to get it done.
I commit myself to bring myself out of my mind and into
reality, where big plans involve actual real commitment, dedication and effort,
instead of imagining about obtaining the big results thus only creating
energetic emotional experiences within and as me, which will only lead to
feelings of defeat when I try to accomplish these things in real life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
expect/want/desire instant gratification and immediate results.
I commit myself to remember the pace at which the physical
moves and to stop rushing ahead in my mind, creating a whole reality before I
even take the first step, but to instead take my first steps Here, the only
place where it is possible to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive instant gratification and immediate results are
possible.
I commit myself to let go of the McWorld of the mind, and enter
into the real world, where change takes time and actions have consequences.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not realize that movement in the physical takes time.
I commit myself to be the patience, dedication, commitment
and discipline that I am, and to develop myself as these qualities, in order to
move with the physical world which is the real reality we all share.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
distract myself from Here with curiosity and entertainment and fruitless
pursuits of the mind that always bring me back to the exact same pattern of
procrastination, overwhelmed and anxious.
I commit myself to stop feeding the energetic experience I achieve
when fulfilling my curiosities and to instead direct myself to occupy my time
not with gossip, entertainment and distraction, but with actual actions and
self-directed learning while working towards a living understanding of myself,
my world and reality.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself and my process by
repeating patterns and habits that I know lead to nowhere and timeloops.
I commit myself to take the necessary steps to replace self-sabotage with self-care,
self-nurturing and self-creation.
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