In the Beginning was the Word: micro-blog from Desteni Universe

#EQAFEDISCOVERY

Today I finally listened to Jesus speaking about the word 'Word', and how to redefine and live it. A cool exercise to look at is writing the following:

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with Life, and the Word was Life.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with Me, and the Word was Me.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with a Day, and the Word was a Day.

What I got from this was walking a process from solution through to the first initial steps of application necessary. We are in fact All Gods, in that we are essentially the creators of our individual realities, and collectively - reality as a whole.

Unfortunately, that of us that has taken the reigns, that is sitting in the driver's seat and doing the creating is our individual minds, which are rife with self-interest, ego, survival, etc..., which ends up creating a world and reality like we see today.

So, here looking at the solution of All of us becoming Creator Gods that create in such a way where we create a world that is Best For All and so: Best For Self. But if you see in the writing application above, we have to first work with the first most basic and fundamental steps we have, which is one day at a time, living-word by living-word and Self first - because we can only move as fast as, or at the pace of physical reality.

The recording explained the tendency for individuals to want to skip the nitty-gritty process of Self-change/Self-creation and jump right to the God part.

This recording was a really cool reminder of the importance of walking a process with/for/as Self first, and what that really means, and why.

Check it out here (Jesus speaking through the Interdimensional Portal):

Redefining WORD - The Crucifixion of Jesus - Part 135

 

Earning the Right to Life Self-Forgiveness: micro blog from Desteni Universe

#SELFFORGIVENESS

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand equal, within myself, to the greater group, regardless of accomplishments, endeavours, time spent, money paid or any other factor except that I am simply Here, One and Equal, wherein I think/believe/perceive that I must push myself to prove myself over and over that I 'deserve' to be Here, that I have 'earned' my 'right' to be Here, that I must give up some part of myself as 'payment' so that I can be Here, not seeing, realizing and understanding that living in this way is system/survival - based living, which not only keeps me trapped in survival, affecting everything I do, but also keeps the current system of survival, of having to 'earn' one's right to Life, holding it in place inside myself because it is apparently the only way that I think/believe/perceive that I know how to live and function, without seeing that- that is not Life.

Within this, I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed my starting point to be that of simply, actually Being Here, living that equality within myself, and having everything else be an outflow of that stance and starting point.

Candy Crush #BACKTOSELF: micro blog from Desteni Universe

#BACKTOSELF

I have been playing Candy Crush for quite some time now, and I sometimes get comments like "you know that game is mostly luck right?", or that it is "set up on an algorithm" to entice you to spend money.

I do know that, but I decided to keep going regardless, without spending any money, because as I was playing I kept on having what I now call 'Candy Crush Life Lessons'.
For example, I was on this one level where I simply could not make any moves that would advance me, due to how the candies were falling. It was as if the game was forcing my hand, giving me no options but to run out of lives before I got anywhere.

I got to a point where I became frustrated and just wanted to give up, or just quickly loose all my lives so that the algorithm would change. But then I thought: sometimes LIFE deals you a really bad hand, where it looks like you just don't have any options, and it feels like you are going nowhere.

And so I looked at it as if it were life, and asked myself: "Who do I want to be in this situation should I encounter it in my life?" And my answer was that I wanted to be someone that does their BEST regardless of how bleak the outlook.

As we all may or may not know, Who We Are in the small, seemingly insignificant moments is the same person we're going to be in the 'big important' ones.

And so what I did was I practiced other skills while repeating the same level over and over. I practiced planning, predicting and strategizing. Finally, obviously I was able to pass the level after many attempts, as if the game decided it wasn't going to get any money out of me this time, essentially giving up before I did!

What I noticed was that, once I started moving on again, I now had new skills and was able to do better on the following levels. What it showed me, and what I have in fact applied elsewhere in my life, is that when we're in a seemingly 'dead-end' situation, like a job we don't like and know we're not going to stay there, we can either coast through (essentially a 'giving up') until it's finally over and we somehow get out, or we can make the best of it, push ourselves to learn new skills, develop weaknesses into strengths, or take that time to set ourselves up for something better.

This way, we play on Our Terms, where we are using the time we have as effectively as possible, even if the future or next step is uncertain. You can either sit and coast/give up, remaining unsatisfied and complain about the current situation, or you can seek out or create opportunities to learn, expand and grow.

If you choose the latter, you set yourself up for Life to present you with new doors to walk through, or you will create a door for yourself, walk through it, and come into the next phase of life now armed with new skills, qualities and abilities that will serve you in your new role.

Candy Crush has also taught me about persistence, perseverance, not giving up, not holding on to undirected wealth, when to give it my all and when to wait for the right moment, among many others!
For more Candy Crush Life Lessons, check out Creation's Journey to Life blog:

Day 402: Candy Crush Saga: A Giant Evolutionary Jump in Education

Self-Care: micro blog from Desteni Universe

#ACTIONSHOT(S)

After over a week of intense PMS, OCD and ABCDEFG, I was getting to my wits end in terms of NOT really knowing or feeling equipped to support myself, feeling like nothing's working day after day as I was sinking deeper into physical and emotional discomfort and despair... except that in pushing myself, practicing actions of self care, basically going back to the basics of process in terms of also reaching out for support, talking, writing, breathing, getting my ass UP and OUT into nature, the sun, fresh air, despite wanting only to curl up into a little ball and sleep, avoid, distract (and yes, I did these things as well).... I learned a very valuable lesson.

Now, looking back at it from 'the other side', I can see that, although these things felt like they were being done 'in vain' AT THE TIME, I see now that each effort, each push, each action of self-care and self-support was in fact me taking a step, laying a brick, placing a tile in and as the foundation of self in order to create a SELF that can STAND no matter what.

In the photos that follow you'll see simple acts of pushing and self-care: me doing a face mask to soothe my irritated skin, cooking a proper breakfast as part of my 'healthy habit' challenge, getting out for a walk when I really wanted to stay in and watch movies all day, going to the POOL in my BATHING SUIT despite being bloated to twice my normal size!!! There are many more things I did that are not pictured here, like talking to my partner, writing, lots of breathing and moments alone with stretching, slowing down, speaking self-forgiveness, and directing tasks that were weighing down on me.

And it all felt like a meaningless struggle while doing it, as I kept going back to the inner turmoil, the despair. However, now that I am coming out on the other side, I see that what is developed through this kind of persistence, consistency and application, despite the experience at the time, is a self-trust, a discipline, a stand and a stance that shows me and let's me know (I show myself and let myself know) that even in my lowest, most confused, uncertain points, I will do my damndest, push my hardest, try everything to support myself and find solutions, and never, ever give up on me.

So, here's to self-care, self-love, self-movement and all the basics of self-forgiveness, self-correction, breathing and writing, as we each push through our ups and downs, our challenges and triumphs, in order to find ourselves and show ourselves what we are really made of and in fact capable of.

Here's to process and Desteni, Bernard Poolman, Susan Spies and the farmies for standing as the living, leading examples, and all destonians for doing the same so that no one ever has to walk alone.

Feeling grateful and grounding myself Here :). Thanks erbody for being Here!

Competing with Women Self-Forgiveness: micro blog from Desteni Universe

For most of my life I have existed in a competition for survival, with men and women, but mostly with other women - competing at work, over men, in social circles - and I have had enough. A world of competition and survival is NOT a world I want to leave for the children to come, but instead one where we work together as ONE humanity with the shared goals of doing What's Best for All, supporting SELF and each other, and lifting each other up instead of beating each other down.
Some layers in this programming I have noticed are:

Competition in Subtle Moments
Inferior/Superior Polarity
Fearing Equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as superiority and inferiority with others in my world, specifically women and from a starting point of fear of survival, where I see women as my competition whom I must be better than in order to find a mate, secure a job and survive, instead of uniting and supporting other woman as myself, and lifting others up with me as I support myself to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in competition with others, thus perpetuating a world of competition, power struggles, fighting, war, devastation and destruction, because at it's core, it all has the same programing of competition and survival, and I can no longer be a part and contribution to that, because I see/realize/understand that there is another way that can benefit everyone and not just some/the few/the winners.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear humility and equality because I have built my ego to feel greater than others from a starting point of inferiority, where I live In Fear of everything and everyone as I have spent my time building my EGO as me, instead of building mySELF, the substance of me, my actions in the physical, wherein the EGO has no ground to stand upon, and can crumble and fall with a hint of a wisp of energy, whereas a SELF that is REAL stands unwavering, unmoved, untouchable, Here, Physical, Equal, Fearless, Humble.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear humility and equality because I perceive that it takes away my ability to be better than others, and that, without that ability, I will be left to face the truth of me, that within myself I feel inferior and less-than, and that I need to fight to prove and validate to everyone outside of myself that this is not the case, instead of embracing me, the reality of me in this moment - flaws and all, and rather than continuing to fight, taking the first steps towards letting go of all ideas about myself I held/hold in high esteem, and humbly and consistently returning to nothingness to build myself again, for real, Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to be able to participate in the inferiority/superiority polarity because it gives me the option to think/believe/perceive that I am better than others and therefor I will survive, and for those moments when I do gives my ego the feeling of security and distracts me from the truth of my self-belief of inferiority, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that All are equal in this process of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hang on to my insecurities by participating within and as ‘superiority’ because when I do, I feel positive energy within the experience that I am better, of value and worth, and experience myself as not needing to change, instead of actually changing in such a way where I develop a living expression of self-value and self-worth in thought, word and deed, wherein I can then become the living word ‘humility’ and realize the equality that is Here, and stop participating in the competition that stems from the ‘inferiority’/’superiority’ polarity.

Daily Walk and Share: micro-blog from Desteni Universe

Farmies daily walk and share.

I recommend everyone take 20-30 minutes to just walk and talk with those in their lives. You can link it to something else you do daily, like after dinner and dishes for example. For us it is when we tend to the horses in the afternoon, we give them 20-30 minutes in their stables to eat. While they eat, we walk, while we walk, we talk.

It doesn't have to be anything grand or spectacular. But just creating this moment to connect to those that share your environment, in between the business and chaos, for me has been very grounding and beneficial for mind and body.

Recommended EQAFE recording:

Perspective Versus Interpretation (Part 2) -Reptilians - Part 566

"Are you breaking yourself and others down, or are you building yourself and others up? Do you hold grudges against yourself and others or do you focus on how you can learn and grow?

In this interview Anu opens up some deeper dimensions of how we break ourselves and others down and get lost in projection, judgment and negativity instead of looking at responsibility and what it means to really support ourselves and each other."

Discernment and Diet, Honouring My Body: micro-blog from Desteni Universe

It started with setting out on a process to honour my physical body, and ended in me falling flat and almost dropping it all, wondering… “what happened?”

I had been hearing about and doing some research on ‘Intermittent Fasting’. It had been getting really good reviews from others, and at times when I’d tested it, I liked the result and how it made me feel physically, but I had never done it for more than a few days or a week.

At the same time, I was using an app to develop a better and more consistent routine for myself. The routine consisted of starting small, with habits like drinking water, eating a healthy breakfast and doing light exercise in the morning.

I found there to be some stress building around me trying to integrate these two different elements into my life, firstly because the information was conflicting. For example, one was saying I should eat a healthy breakfast, and the other was telling me to wait and only eat after the 16 hour fast was over. Where I would be having this dilemma that I should now be eating, but no! I should wait till the fast is over! And secondly, sometimes my body or my day was not suitable for the exercise to happen at the time it should, or the breakfast to be as it should due to time or missing ingredients, and I would start going into panic or judgment that now I am falling on my commitment!

In essence: in an attempt to honour my physical body physically, I was instead causing emotional stress and self-abuse through my own reactions to trying to do everything right and follow all the instructions!

What I realize was that, these plans that have fixed and rigid times and schedules are not taking into consideration the most important ingredient: ME, my body, my physical composition, my responsibilities, my process points I am facing, and everything that makes up my physical and mental life that I walk with every day.

My hormones fluctuate throughout the month with my menstrual cycle, and sometimes I am very hungry later in the evening, or if I don’t eat, I begin to shake and have a blood-sugar crash. While other times the thought of food repulses me in the mornings. Sometimes my mornings are calm and relaxed with little physical activity, and sometimes I have a very physically busy day. I have OCD and migraines that make frequent disruptions in my plans, structure and scheduling, as well as being located on a farm where visits to town are less frequent, and where there are people, animals and other responsibilities that impact my life in ways that can be unplanned and unpredictable.

This is just one small example of the conflicting information we can receive from experts, from science, from plans, articles or the most recent fads – in the sea of information we are quite literally bombarded with each day, which wants us to follow their instructions and their plans to a ‘T’, while not taking into consideration that every single human being has drastically different physical, mental and emotional realities to consider, and that the changes of needs and requirements for one person can also fluctuate quite drastically throughout the week or months.

I am working with how to place ‘me’ firmly WITHIN MYSELF first, as I slowly introduce, test out and integrate pieces of information, instead of placing me within the information, as if that ‘me’ is a little mysterious black box that ‘should’ respond to the application of information exactly as it depicts.

In this way, I am using the information as tools to get to know me/myself/my body better: what do I need right now and what information would be the most supportive to apply? What are my requirements and how do they change over the course of the month? Which tool can I bring in for these days or couple of days that would support me best in these moments? In order to be able to discern which information would be of best support for me in the moment, I must first have an effective awareness and communication with my own body, and using the information as ‘tools’ in my life can assist and support in my process of developing that.

So, it’s a getting-to-know the information, getting-to-know me, and getting-to-know how the information integrates into me and my life in order to be able to discern what information to apply in my life and when.

If you’re curious, what I’ve found out is that for about two weeks a month, it is usually best to drop the intermittent fasting (before, during and a bit after menstruation). During menstruation I basically give my body what it wants, more sleep, and I place less importance on the exercise in the mornings and just make sure I move throughout the day a bit. I can be more disciplined for the other two weeks. I do drink the water every day, and will eat in the mornings usually 1-2 hours after waking up unless I wake up hungry. If I feel a migraine coming, that takes priority where rest, low stimulation, consistent food and water is what I need, and then with OCD, the best thing is for me to bring in the discipline and instruction-following – There is no plan on earth out there that is developed for this specific set of parameters. I have done this for me, and in the end, using my discernment when it comes to information has been the answer I was looking for in terms of how to honour my physical body, while taking into consideration that I am more that just a body, I am a mind, a beingness, and a person that lives in a specific environment at a specific time in my life.

Discernment
Dis-earn-meant
Dis - dissecting the information
Earn – Earning the solution/answer through doing the work
Meant – ‘intention’, doing it with intention/being clear on what I intent to achieve, what I mean to do.

For some VERY supportive insights into this topic, have a listen to: https://eqafe.com/p/losing-yourself-in-the-information-age-back-to-basics

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