This is a continuation of my past blogs:
Day 60- http://kimsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-60-am-i-but-reactive-child-trapped.html
Herein I am continuing self-forgiveness statements on my reactions
within a situation which I am tracing back through peeling back the layers
within and through self-forgiveness so that I may understand and delete the
character/pattern from within and as me- thus interacting with parental figures
from a starting point of equality and oneness instead of from the parent-child
dynamic.
Reaction D: Anger. Thought: my creator/a
parental figure should apply his/herself to the utmost to be present and aware
with me, and do everything in his/her power to support me to empower myself and
grow- yet this does not happen, because here I am- unsatisfied with myself.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to see/perceive/believe a parental
figure as something supernatural because that is what created me.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to expect a parental figure to have
everything figured out because as a child I believed adults knew everything,
and instead of taking responsibility to get to know myself and assist and
support myself to learn, experiment and explore, I waited to be told what to do
and who and how to be.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate my self-responsibility to parental
figures, wherein I expected them to run my life and tell me exactly what to do,
instead of standing up and living me for myself.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to react within and as anger towards
the fact that no parental figure is perfect, nor a living example of perfection
that is able to teach me how to live for real, instead of seeing, realizing and
understanding that all are innocent within their ignorance (yet responsible for
self-change).
Self-Forgiveness
on Reaction E:
Reaction E: Anger, Thought: Parental figures put themselves last, after the child’s
needs are met. However, I am no longer a child, and do not need anyone to
sacrifice themselves for me. I interpret this behaviour as the parental figure
not believing I am capable.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in anger towards my
self-projection wherein I am well aware of the fact that I put myself last and
try/attempt to be responsible for everyone else before my own well-being
because it is easier to put myself last and look at others than it is to
actually look at myself and take responsibility for myself and change me.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing anger reactions to exist within and as me.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry with myself instead of
seeing, realizing and understanding the importance of changing myself.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to project myself on to a parental
figure instead of looking at the points within myself and changing them, thus I
forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate my
self-responsibility on to a parental figure wherein I become angry when he/she
accepts and allows him/herself to participate in abdication instead of seeing
that I am doing the very same thing thus ensuring the repeating cycle of not
taking responsibility within both myself and the parental figure.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to put myself last and placing being
responsible for others above my own well-being.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to use placing myself last and taking
responsibility for others as an excuse to not face and change myself.
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to use excuses and distractions to not
look at me and see the reality of myself in terms of who I have accepted and
allowed myself to be and become.
To be continued...
To be continued...
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