Day 55- Am I the 'Annoyed Daughter' - Self-Corrective Statements

This blog is a continuation of the explanation of the character I play out in my life of the 'annoyed daughter,' as well as self-forgiveness statements which reveal why and how I developed this character.

Continued from Day 54- Am I the 'Annoyed Daughter'?

Self-Corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself going into the character of ‘annoyed daughter’ which is indicated to me by the red flags of finding myself annoyed by my parents, looking for inability, viewing them as old/aging and finding myself worried about their capabilities etc… I STOP and I breathe. I bring myself back to presence by breathing through the reactions and reminding myself that who I am is not a character, reacting within character such as the ‘annoyed daughter’ reacting within annoyance. Who I am is Here, breathing, self-responsible, living, dealing with the actual reality of the situation, and not with the issues and reactions of an illusionary character trying to believe or perceive herself to be a certain way.

I commit myself to breathing through my cast of characters instead of participating within and as them, thus living myself Here as breath instead of there as character.

When and as I see that I am acting out a character which I have defined as responsible and mature I stop, and I breather. I bring myself back to awareness within the understanding that all I ever can be is me Here, and as soon as I desire to be ‘more than’ what I am by acting it out instead of actually practically changing myself, I am only behaving self-dishoneslty thus creating myself as only a limited character of the mind, instead of a whole expansive being here in reality.

I commit myself to stop living the con of characters in order to CONvince myself that I am a certain way, such as responsible and mature, and to instead Live and create who I am in self-honesty, based upon the principles of equality and oneness.

When and as I see that I am manipulating myself by going into character in order to convince myself that I have changed, matured, become a responsible human being I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-direction within the realization of the importance of actually getting to know myself and who and what I am, and directing myself to be and become a mature and responsible human being, equal and one in FACT: in living application according to writing myself out and cross-referencing my writing with others who are willing to call me out if necessary, such as the Desteni community.

I commit myself to stop manipulating myself in order to play-act that I am something that I am not yet, and to become and realize my full potential through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application until I am equal to and one with all that is Here.

When and as I see that I am altering myself to fit into a predefined character in order to create the perception that I think/believe/perceive I require to be acceptable/desirable by myself/others I stop, and I breathe, I walk myself out of the character and back to physical reality by reminding myself that who I Am Here is already enough, and that playing false roles actually diminishes myself further and creates self-dishonest relationships that do not support me, but rather support my mind/ego/separation.

When and as I see that I am existing within and as chracters instead of existing as self-expression in the moment I stop and I breathe. I bring myself back to awareness within the realization that Who I Am Here can be grown and expanded while who I am as a character will only ever become more and more limited.

For more context, check out:

 http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-51-moving-through-my-characters.html

and: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-80-creating-character.html

To learn how to write out your own characters, visit the forums at www.desteni.org

Day 54- Am I the 'Annoyed Daughter'?

            Looking at this character I play when I am in the presence of my parents, I see it as a very typical character. I experience it almost as a ‘rite of passage’ because, in looking at the character as I remember having seen it in and as others, I have defined it as an indication of having attained a certain level of maturity. I can remember when I was younger and often existed as the role of ‘dependent child,’ I would look at adults with aging parents and watch as they cared for them or spoke about their situation. It was as if the roles of parent and child had reversed, like it had as my grandparents died. I saw the children now taking care of the parents and, as I was growing up, I couldn’t fathom that kind of maturity and responsibility. I held my parents on a pedestal and believed I needed them to walk me through life and take care of me. A part of me resented this dependency, so a part of me was in awe of ever thinking that one day I too may experience the parent-child role reversal.  I now see how, over time I have integrated the behavior I observed into and as myself, as if preparing myself for this shift that may one day happen. Now that I am grown and completely capable, I find myself reacting to and towards my parents in the slightly annoyed yet patient and understanding demeanor that I observed throughout my life, especially within and as my own parents towards their parents as they were ailing and aging.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the character of the ‘annoyed daughter,’ because of the subconscious belief that it makes me responsible and mature, because that is how I judged others when I observed the behavior within and as them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I require to define myself by acting out certain characters, such as the ‘annoyed daughter,’ in order to CONvince myself that I am a certain way which I desire to be, specifically responsible and mature, instead of simply existing in the moment within and as self-responsibility, which is the living application of responsibility and maturity ( I will redefine these words to living words in posts to come).

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/need/desire to CONvince myself that I am responsible and mature because that is self-manipulation with a dishonest starting point that allows me, excuses me and validates me to exist without actually changing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as a character because I desire to perceive myself, as well as be perceived by others, as being a certain way which I have defined as acceptable and desirable, based on the accumulation of observations, judgments, knowledge and information from my environment over time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as characters instead of existing as myself, as self-expression in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be ‘more than’ what I am through wanting/needing/desiring to own and control my self-definitions as characters that I can go into and out of whenever I want in order to manipulate my internal experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe/perceive myself to be the ‘annoyed daughter’ as a character I have created over time, and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to indulge an act within and as such a role in order to make myself feel better about myself, instead of just being okay with who and how I am living, and taking the self-responsibility to change those parts of me that I am not ok with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value perceiving myself as the ‘annoyed daughter’ who Is so responsible and mature rather than valuing what I actually am and what I am living, wherein, within this valuation I take care of who and what I am and that which I am actually living by writing it out, paying attention, being aware and taking responsibility for it.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that the ‘annoyed daughter’ character is only a make-believe character that is not real and is not, nor has ever been who I really am. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live the ‘annoyed daughter’ character as if it were real, giving it energy as attention and making it real-thus abdicating myself to a character based on a ‘good/satisfied feeling’ instead of directing myself to live from a starting point of principle: the principle of doing what’s best for all, within the understanding that we are all one and equal therefore what’s best for all is best for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react towards my parents within and as annoyance, because of a character I am playing, instead of living and interacting with my parents as my equals.

Self-Corrective and self-commitment statements to follow in the next blog.

For further context on character creation, check out these other blogs:

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-stepping-out-of-character.html?m=1

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/looking-for-more-of-myself-day-78.html

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-44-character-game.html

http://rozelledelangeblog.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-22-me-as-main-character-within.html

http://journey-of-lindsay.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-kill-buddha-hes-just-character.html

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-life-as-character-overview-day-79.html

http://spiritualjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-45-characters-i-allow-as-self.html

http://malingunilla.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-im-nothing-but-character.html

For support on how to develop an effective platform of self-support within writing visit the forums at www.desteni.org

Day 53- All I Exist as is a cast of Characters

It’s cool because this realization that all we all are and have ever been is a cast of characters playing out the script we have written for ourselves in our own Hollywood movie where we are the star has really strung together a lot of self-forgiveness I have already realized within myself. It answers questions like, why do we act/react one way in one environment surrounded by certain specific people, and then another way in another environment? Why do we fear doing something for the first time? Because we have no memories to script ourselves with in order to know which character to be. Why do we fear to call others out on their bullshit? Because they might turn around and call us out on ours, because in reality, each is only wearing the mask of the character that they are in that moment, and each validates, accepts and allows all others to keep their characters in an unspoken agreement that we all participate in. And these characters seem so real that we actually become them as we believe them to be who we are.

When I look at this baby I know, I see that she does not have any characters- she is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I look at a 3 year old that I’m close to, and I see her designing her characters- based on the reactions and feedback she receives from those around her- what behaviour gets her attention, which actions give her approval, what makes her feel good, where can she exert control, etc… And then I look at a 5 year old who I’ve watched grow up, and I see already formed characters where the same pattern repeats itself every time- to the point where the parents/family learn how to cope with his characters and end up manipulating the environment to avoid the troublesome ones and encourage the good/likeable ones, the ones that make US feel good too. Within observing these children, I can see how I created my cast of characters over time. The fact that we don’t remember scripting/designing/creating the characters we play can give the impression that they weren’t scripted, designed or created at all- but are rather who we really are- however- it is apparent that they are in fact nothing but characters and acting and thus- not real. If each one of us were to stand up as who we really are as Life, we for sure would not put up with all the bullshit we do today- from ourselves and from others.

So, the only thing to do now is to call out all the characters, pull them out and expose them in order to be able to forgive them and let them go so that we can find out what is behind them. What human potential has been limited and suppressed for so long due to the limitations we have imposed upon ourselves through playing mere characters and role instead of living, breathing and expressing us as who we really are- one and equal to everything and all that is here. From here on out, my journey to Life will involve calling out the characters I have designed and played out for myself, because they are limited and limiting and I will not accept or allow myself to exist as anything less than who I am.

For more context on how we have existed and created ourselves as nothing more than charaters on a stage, chaeck out these other blogs:

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-stepping-out-of-character.html?m=1

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/looking-for-more-of-myself-day-78.html

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-44-character-game.html

http://rozelledelangeblog.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-22-me-as-main-character-within.html

http://journey-of-lindsay.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-kill-buddha-hes-just-character.html

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-life-as-character-overview-day-79.html

http://spiritualjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-45-characters-i-allow-as-self.html

http://malingunilla.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-im-nothing-but-character.html

Day 52- Fear of Being Self-Honest within my Interactions with Others

Day 52- Fear of Being Self-Honest Within my Interactions with Others

                It is one thing to practice self-honesty within oneself, and another to live it outwardly within and through interactions with others. You never know how others will take it, and this unpredictability scares me a little bit within and as my mind. Looking at this point, I see a fear of the unknown, which is funny because I have identified the fear of the unknown within myself without realizing that the fear of how others will react is also the fear of the unknown within self. For example- if there’s conflict, will I stand? Will I remain self-honest or will I fall and compromise myself? Will I give in to reactions, or will I remain stable? So, I’m going to have a closer look at this fear so that I can walk within and as it and through it so that I have more of a handle on what it is and how it works.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the reactions of others to and towards me as I walk my process towards self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear whether or not I will stand up in a given situation, within the anticipation that I may fall.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be/become influenced by my future projections/anticipations, instead of seeing/realizing/understanding that the only way I can and will and am walking this point towards stability is by walking through it over and over until I stand no matter what, which involves walking within and through interactions with others within self-honesty in the moment, over and over and over until I stop wavering, stop compromising myself and stop falling bck into the mind of reactions, thoughts, feelings, emotions etc…

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust myself Here in the moment..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the investment of time that is required to develop self-trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/need/desire self-trust as an experience of self-trust, instead of living within and as self-trust as Who I Am in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage myself by going into ego within interactions with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/need/desire to know all the answers and fix the problem instead of taking it moment by moment and walking it through from beginning to end.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear I will not stand within and as my interactions with others because I have, for so long, placed my power within and as others, instead of standing within and as my power as self-worth, self-acceptance, self-love,  wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and define myself based upon others.

I forgive myself for Not accepting and allowing myself to stand as self-worth, self-acceptance and self-love, and I see, realize and understand that in order to live myself as these things I must stand self-honestly and express myself self-honestly and fearlessly in each moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself due to my fears of how others may react to me if I am outwardly self-honest within and as my expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself through self-suppression because of and due to the fear of how others mat react outwardly toward me.

I commit myself to develop myself within and as self-trust through constantly, consistently and diligently pushing myself to express myself fearlessly and self-honestly in each moment until I stand no matter what.

I commit myself to stand within and as self-acceptance and self-worth, within and through pushing myself constantly, consistently and diligently to assert myself to and towards my self-living, standing and breathing within and as presence and awareness and self-honesty in each moment, thus taking myself back from all the parts of me I have separated myself into and as.

I commit myself to walking this process, my process as myself, towards self-realization, despite my projected fears of what others may think.

When and as I see that I am going into self-suppression due to fear of others outward reactions to/towards me, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back into awareness by grounding myself with and as breath, within the realization that nothing and no one can take away who or what I am. I realize that this fear of confrontation is just a character I play, an is not who I am as Life, but rather a belief developed over time, which is ont real.

Day 51- Tempted by Love

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be tempted by the energetic experience of ‘love.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to return to the internal energetic experience of ‘love’ because it felt good and made me feel special.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to prioritize my experience of ‘me,’ and ‘my life, and feeling ‘special’ in a world that is in dire condition, wherein, within my participation within and asthe energetic experience of ‘love’ I am making the statement that the way Ifeel inside is more important than my commitment to myself as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desireto feel ‘special’ in a world where no one is ‘more special’ than another,because all are of equal importance and utmost importance and none should bedisregarded, left behind, left out, or not considered.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be tempted to return to ‘love’ because I can lose myself and not face myselfwithin ‘love,’ and I can return to the abdication of self-responsibility withinthe co-dependence that ‘love’ so often generates.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/desire to return to ‘love’ because then I won’t have to learn to love myself, and I won’t have to change, because another will ‘love’ me ‘just theway I am.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/desire to return to ‘love’ because it makes the world seem like a better, nicer, and even wonderful place, when it most certainly is not- it’s not about going around depressed about the state of things, but rather for reach to accept their responsibility within it, wherein- when one is lost within and consumed by the inner emotional energetic experience of ‘love’ created by the mind and experienced by/through chemical reactions within the physical body (which has nothing to do with the actual state of reality or anything real or practical whatsoever)- one is absolutely disregarding the state of the world and the suffering and abuse taking place, and one is placing oneself and one’s own internal experience which is based only on self-created experiences,  above the actual real problems that require immediate attention in this world and within self, as the separation and disregard for one’s own physical body in pursuit of energetic emotionalexperiences instead.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear hurting another within the act of my withdrawing my participation in ‘love.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I am a heartless person as I withdraw from ‘love,’ and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being seen as a heartless, uncaring person by those that may not understand what I am doing and why.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to return to the old, familiar and comfortable patterns and habits that I am used to, instead of standing up and walking and forging a new way and a new path for myself, wherein I assert mysef as the self-directive principle in my life, instead of floating along and accepting and allowing events to unfold willy-nilly wherein I sit back and react.

I commit myself to taking the wheel in my Life, as this is the only Life I have, thus it is of absolute primary importance for me to step up, step in and get physical.

I commit myself to walk throu gh any and all temptations and challenges that I may face throughout my process, wherein the temptation ofhabits, patterns and addictions will have to be walked through over and over until it’s done, which I am committed to doing whatever it takes.

I commit myself to see through the veil of ‘love’ and energy, to the actual reality of myself, physical reality and how it’s all unfolding, and where I stand within it.

When and as I see that I am being tempted to fall into and follow an energetic experience, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-direction within the understanding that I can enjoy myself with another without participating in the inner emotional energetic experience of ‘love,’ it is not necessary to  sabotage myself because I am able to self-honestly stand within and as relationships without giving up or giving in to the mind of ego and desire, to be wanted, important and special, etc… instead of valuing myself as all as one as equal. I value myself, whole, Here, and walk within self-direction as I change within relationships in my world.

Day 50- Sharing Too Much of the Wrong Thing

            A pattern I have observed myself participating within is the tendency to share too much of the wrong thing. What I mean by this is that I try/attempt to share myself, my experience etc…. with others in such a way where I am actually subtly trying to manipulate how they perceive me within the information I choose to share. The question I came to ask myself when I finally saw this was: Why? The answer I was able to provide for myself was that of fear. Because I fear the way people perceive me, I attempt to manipulate the way they see me. The reason why I would fear this is because I have placed my own self-perception and self-judgment within how I see myself reflected back to me through others. So, if someone were to react towards me within absolute disgust, in my mind I would be devastated because then I would perceive myself to be disgusting. The ironic part within all of this is that, generally, when such instances do come up where another displays judgments or reactions towards me, I am able to stand up from within them and take my power back and not ‘fall for’ the old tricks of the mind of abdication of self-responsibility through giving myself as my power away in such a way by placing it outside of myself. So I can see that this is a mind-based fear that exist more in my mind and as projections than in actual reality, wherein, if such a situation was to arise, I would not allow myself to be as affected by it because I would see it for what it was in fact, which I have proven to myself that I am capable of doing. However, there are still certain people and certain reactions/events that ‘get to me,’ where the reaction is intense enough that it still seems ‘real,’ instead of me realizing that the reaction is not ‘real’ nor who I am, but rather a mind/power/ego game where I am not facing those parts of me that I have, in a way, given away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing myself as those parts of me that I have given away to sources outside myself, such as judgments about who I am and how I direct my life, and judgments about who I am in terms of a girl who shares the innermost depths of her mind online for all to see, wherein I try/attempt to appear ‘normal’ to those around me for fear that they may judge me for what I reveal without considering what goes on within their own minds that they are not taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my words as an expression of myself from the starting point of the above mentioned fear, and used my words from the starting point of fear of judgment, in order to act on that fear by trying to avoid it through trying and attempting to manipulate others in my environment to not see me/judge me/perceive me the way I fear to be seen/judged/perceived.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try/attempt to paint a picture of myself as who I am or how I would like to be perceived, when I have not yet explored, discovered and uncovered all of who I am with/as/for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that I know who I am, and then try/attempt to prove that through expressing how I would like others to perceive me, instead of standing up within self-trust and self-expression in the moment, expressing myself as who I am in the moment without the influence of the mind or fear, thus actually discovering myself in each moment as I express me.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to freely express me within self-honesty in the moment because I haven’t stood up to the fears existent within me, and have instead allowed those fears to be an expression of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express fear as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away by accepting and allowing others to judge me and define me because instead of discovering who I am in each moment through self-honest self-expression, I have up till now only seen me within and through the reactions/reflections of others and accept it to be who I am. Till here no further.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear self-honest self-expression in the moment, within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself as who I will be without fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others without knowing them for who they really are, because when and as I judge another, I am actually accepting and allowing the behavior within myself, thus making the statement that I accept and allow it within others. Therefore, if I stop, then I will no longer be influenced by the fear of judgment from others, because I will cease to participate in making it real, which it is not.

I commit myself to taking myself back by no longer accepting and allowing myself to continue to give my power away to others outside myself.

I commit myself to stop living as an expression of fear, by stopping myself from speaking/acting/moving me from a starting point of fear.

I commit myself to develop self-honest self-expression in the moment in order that I may truly get to know myself for the first time.

When and as I see that I am speaking from a starting point of fear, indicated by the fact that I am speaking to others in such a way as to influence their perception of me, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back into awareness within the realization that the only way that I can emerge as a self-directive, self-honest being that is not fear-based, is by stopping my participation within speaking me from a starting point of fear. I stop, and I breathe, and I realize that it is better to not speak at all, than to speak words self-dishonestly, such as words and information that come from a starting point of fearing what others may think of me, and wanting/needing/desiring them to see me as I would like to be seen, instead of getting to know myself for real.

I commit myself to stop sharing myself self-dishonestly, because I see that it is self-sabotage and keeps me trapped within cycles of judgment, fear and self-judgment.

I commit myself to stopping sharing too much of myself, withoutreally knowing myself in my entirety.

I commit myself to remaining stable within the reality that people are going to think what they want about me, and I commit myself to breathe through the fear of judgment of others, until it no longer influences me.

Day 49- Wasting Time Cause Life is Hard (redefining 'work')

This is a continuation of days 46, 47 and 48 wherein I am now redefining the word ‘work’ to a living word, one which has a definition that I can live in fact, and that, if lived, will support me and support what is best for all.

            My current allocation of the word ‘work’ is within and as the polarity opposite of Life, an allocation within which, having lived throughout my life has led me to live a certain amount of waiting. Waiting for work to end, waiting for life, placing Life and Living in categories as positively charged words which could not take place at the same time as ‘work’- a negatively charged word. I’ve also defined ‘work’ as taking responsibility, thus making taking responsibility for myself seem like it is something different than life and living, when in fact, Life requires self-responsibility in every moment. Thus, my current allocation for ‘work’ is as follows:

Work (negative value)

Hard

Responsibility

Toil

Struggle

Waste of Time

Boring

Labour

Stagnant

Limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word ‘work’ with a negative value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word ‘work’ as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ by judging the word ‘work’ as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ to the word ‘hard.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘hard.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘hard’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘hard’ in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ with the word ‘responsibility.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘responsibility.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘responsibility’ by defining the word ‘work within the word ‘responsibility in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ with the word ‘toil.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word work within the word ‘toil.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘toil’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘’toil’ in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ to the word ‘struggle.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘struggle.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘struggle’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘struggle’ in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ with ‘a waste of time.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within ‘a waste of time.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word work, and from ‘a waste of time’ by defining the word ‘work’ within ‘a waste of time’ in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ to the word ‘boring.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘boring.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘boring’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘boring’ in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ to the word ‘labour.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘labour.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘labour’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘labour’ in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ to the word ‘stagnant.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘stagnant.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘stagnant’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘stagnant’ in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘work’ to the word ‘limited.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘work’ within the word ‘limited.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘work’ and from the word ‘limited’ by defining the word ‘work’ within the word ‘limited’ in separation of myself.

Dictionarydefinition:

Noun: Activity involving mental or physical effort done in order to achieve a purpose or result.

Verb: be engaged in physical or mental activity in order to achieve a purpose or result.

Sounding the word:

Wholly Operational Reality checK

New definition:

To be Wholly Operational within Reality, as well as the Reality check that Life requires work as an applied effort to bring about and maintain what’s best for all. Being Wholly Operational within Reality requires one to check oneself in every moment within and as self-awareness, wherein one checks oneself in self-honesty in every moment, to ensure that one is in fact living what's best for all.